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LOSE YOURSELF.
Drops of Jupiter by Train
Now that shes back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey, hey,
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that theres time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like june, hey, hey
Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated
Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there?
Now that shes back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that theres time to grow, hey, hey
Now that shes back in the atmosphere
Im afraid that she might think of me as plain ol jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land
Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the milky way
And tell me, did venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there?
Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know youre wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me
Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the milky way
But tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated
And tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there?
Na na na na na na
Black Balloon by the Goo Goo Dolls
Baby's black balloon makes her fly
I almost fell into that hole in your life
And you're not thinking about tomorrow
'Cause you were the same as me
But on your knees
A thousand other boys could never reach you
How could I have been the one
I saw the world spin beneath you
And scatter like ice from the spoon
That was your womb
Comin' down the world turned overAnd angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
Or are you someone's prayer
You know the lies they always told you
And the love you never knew
What's the things they never showed you
That swallowed the light from the sun
Inside your room
Comin' down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I'll go on to bring you home
All because I'm
All because I'm
And I'll become
What you became to me
Sway by Bic Runga
Don't stray
Don't ever go away
I should be much to smart for this
You know it gets the better Of me
sometimes, When you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you
Pull me out in time
Don't let me drown
Let me down
I say its all because of you
And here I go
Losing my control
I'm practising your name
So I can say it to your face
It doesn't seem right
To look you in the eye
And let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth
Indeed its time
Tell you why
I say its infinately true
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
And there's no cure
And no way to be sure
Why everythings turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
It makes me so tired
I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart
My logic has been torn apart
And now it all turns sour
Come sweeten every afternoon
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
Its all because of you
Its all because of you
Cater 2 U by Destiny's Child
Baby I see you working hard
Wanna let you know i'm proud
Let ya know that I admire what you do
Don't know if I need to reassure you
My life would be purposeless without you
If I want it (got it) when I ask you (you provide it)
You inspire me to be better
You challenge me for the better
Sit back and let me pour out my love letter
Let me help you
Take off your shoes
Untie your shoe strings
Take off your cuff links
What you wanna eat boo?
Let me feed you
Let me run your bath water
Whatever you desire
I'll aspire
Sing you a song
Turn the game on
I'll brush your hair
Help you put your do-rag on
Want a foot rub
Want a manicure
Baby i'm yours, I wanna cater 2 u boy
Chorus:
Let me cater 2 u
Cause baby this is your day
Do anything for my man
Baby you blow me away
I got your slippers, your dinner
Your dessert and so much more
Anything you want,
Let me cater to you
Inspire me from the heart
Can't nothing tear us apart
Your all I want in a man
I put my life in your hands
I got your slippers, your dinner,
Your dessert and so much more
Anything you want, I wanna cater 2 u
Baby i'm happy your home
Let me hold you in my arms
I just want to take the stress away from you
Makin' sure that i'm doing my part
Boy is there something you need me to do
If you want it, (i got it)
Say the word and (i will try it)
I know whatever i'm not fullfillin' no other woman is willing
I'm gone fullfill you my body and spirit
I promise ya
I'll keep myself up
Remain the same chick you fell in love with
I'll keep it tight
I'll keep my figure right
I'll keep my hair fixed, be rocking the hottest outfits
When you come home late
Tap me on my shoulder, i'll roll over
Baby I heard you, i'm here to serve you,
this love you need, to give it is my joy
All I wanna do is cater to you boy
Repeat Chorus
Wanna give my breath, my strength, my will to live
That's the least I can do
Let me cater to you
Through the good, the bad, the ups and the downs
I'll still be here for you
Let me cater to you
'cos you're beautiful
I love the way you are
Fullfill your every desire
Your wish is my command
I wanna cater to my man
Your heart
So pure your love shines through
The darkness we'll get through
So much of me is you
I wanna cater to my man
Let me cater 2 u
Cause baby this is your day
Do anything for my man
Baby you blow me away
I got your slippers, your dinner
Your dessert and so much more
Anything you want,
Let me cater to you
Inspire me from the heart
Can't nothing tear us apart
You all I want in a man
I put my life in your hands
I got your slippers, your dinner,
Your dessert and so much more
Anything you want, I wanna cater 2 u
Melt with You by Modern English
Moving forward using all my breath
Making love to you was never second best
I saw the world thrashing all around your face
Never really knowing it was always mesh and lace
Ill stop the world and melt with you
Youve seen the difference and its getting better all the time
Theres nothing you and I wont do
Ill stop the world and melt with you
(you should know better)
Dream of better lives the kind which never hate
(you should see why)
Dropped in the state of imaginary grace
(you should know better)
I made a pilgrimage to save this humans race
(you should see why)
What Im comprehending a race that long gone bye
(Ill stop the world) Ill stop the world and melt with you
(Ill stop the world) youve seen the difference and its getting better all the time
(lets stop the world) theres nothing you and I wont do
(lets stop the world) Ill stop the world and melt with you
The futures open wide
(lets stop the world) Ill stop the world and melt with you
(lets stop the world) Ive seen some changes but its getting better all the time
(lets stop the world) theres nothing you and I wont do
(lets stop the world) Ill stop the world and melt with you
Ill stop the world and melt with you (lets stop the world)
Youve seen the difference and its getting better all the time (lets stop the world)
Theres nothing you and I wont do (lets stop the world)
Ill stop the world and melt with you (lets stop the world)
Ill stop the world and melt with you (lets stop the world)
Ill stop the world and melt with you (lets stop the world)
I'm Yours- Jason Mraz
Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
Now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
And nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved
So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
Scooch on over closer dear
And i will nibble your ear
I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue
But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours
Please don't, please don't, please don't
There's no need to complicate
Cause our time is short
This oh this this is out fate, I'm yours.
IT REMINDED ME TWICE THAT I WAS ALIVE.
Drops of Jupiter- Train
Repeat. Repeat. Repeat.
Favorite Line:
She Acts like summer and walks like rain
Black Balloon- The Goo Goo Dolls
Favorite line/s:
Comin' down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
Or are you someone's prayer
Sway- Bic Runga
Favorite line/s:
THE WHOLE SONG! This is my ULTIMATE, favorite song of all time :)
Cater 2 U- Destiny's Child
Favorite line/s: 'Cos you're beautiful, I love the way you are. Fulfill your every desire, your wish is my command, I want to cater to my man..."
"Baby you blow me away..."
This version is done by a very talented Filipino who calls himself "Passion". He's based in San Fo.
Go to Youtube to check out his other songs. He did a wonderful version of "True" by Ryan Cabrera as well as other mixes
Melt with You- Modern English
Favorite line/s: "I made a pilgrimage to save this human race..."
"I'll stop the world and melt with you. You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time. There's nothing you and I won't do..."
I'm Yours- Frank Hagen (Originally by Jason Mraz)
I saw this version in facebook which was uploaded by one of my friends (Hi Bebang!)
Definitely one of the sweetest songs I have ever heard. A very vital part of my 2008 summer song collection :)
Favorite line/s: "...I tried to be cool, but you're so hot that I melted."
"I won't hesitate no more, no more, it cannot wait, I'm yours."
"I won't hesitate no more, no more it cannot wait...I'm sure"
HELLO SUNSHINE.
T.R.I.N.A.
My friends call me Trina.
Some call me Trins.
I like pina colladas.
I love Tea/Coffee
Japanese food is heaven
I love taking pictures.
I love having mini-concerts all over my house which includes dancing in my bathroom, and singing in my shower.
That also means I love being a dork.
I love to read just because it's wonderful!
Powerbooks/Fullybooked/coffee bean is my safe place
My favorite place in my house is my bathroom
Two of my favorite words are STELLAR and SUBLIME (ergo stellarsublime_)
I'd skip a main course and go straight to dessert anytime.
I hate eating breakfast food if it is not served during breakfast time (Except when we eat in pancake house). Jess has got my back.
I have the best friends in the world.
I can't ask for a better family (Crazy crazy!)
I absolutely adore the rain.
I think laughter is the best melody.
I still want to be a mermaid.
Give me the dance floor and I'll rock the night away.
Oh and music...practically my life.
This is what you call randomness.
Anything goes.
RESOLUTIONS FOR 2009:
*BE HAPPY!
*Never settle for less than perfect (sometimes)
*Never settle period.
*Do your best in everything
*Love yourself first. Seriously.
*Be of service for others.
*Dress up and look good for yourself :)
Some of my favorite Quotations:
"I’m erased. I’m gone. I’m nothing. And then the world is free to flow into me like water into an empty bowl…. And… I see. I hear. But not with eyes and ears. I’m not outside my world anymore, and I’m not really inside it either. The thing is, there’s no difference between me and the universe. The boundary is gone. I am it and it is me. I am a stone, a cactus thorn. I am rain. I like that most of all, being rain.” --Star Girl
"Perhaps we give the best of our hearts uncritically, to those who hardly think of us in return." --Lucas Scott, OTH
and my all time favorite:
"Anyone who says sunshine brings happiness has never danced in the rain...fairy tales are more than true, not because they tell us that dragons exist, but because they tell us that dragons can be beaten. " --G.K. Chesterton
In the NOW:
Date: 05/11/09 at 11:36PM
Currently munching on: Still nothing. Craving for: Nothing. Love drink of the moment: Cold unsweetened tea with 2 packets of Splenda Currently watching: Bride Wars Browsing through: Wicked by Greggory Mguire Currently feeling: Sleeepppyyyy In need of: a lot of prayers. Current plans: Accept. Control. Love. Ear Candy of the present: Patron (Tequila) by Paradiso Girls ft. lil John
Favorite Lines:
I'm feelin' so conceited (yeah! )
'Cuz everybody is giving me love (uh, uh)
I'm on Patron, Tequila (YUN LANG EH! haha)
Let's go!
Hey!
What's happenin'?
What you drinkin' tonight girl?
Drinkin' tonight with me!
Put your drinks up!
Hey girl
Where's your drink?
We goin' all get real drunk tonight
Hey girl
I got bud we can all get fucked up tonight (get fucked up tonight)
By the end of the night
Imma have you drunk and throwing up (hey! )
By the end of the night
Imma have you so fucked up! (have you so fucked up)
They said what you drinkin'? (what you drinkin'?)
Let me buy you a couple of rounds
And I said what you thinkin'? (yeah! )
I ain't the type of girl to get down
But I can party wit cha (uh huh)
And bring my girls aside (uh huh)
Tell the bartender bring the ice
And let 'em know I'm on Patron
I'm on Patron, Tequila
I'm drunk on Margarita [on Margaritas]
That Patron, Tequila [that Patron]
Me and my mamacita (yeah! ) [me and my mamacita]
Hey girl (hey girl)
Where's your drink?
We goin' all get real drunk tonight (get real drunk tonight) [real drunk tonight]
Hey girl
I got bud we can all get fucked up tonight (get fucked up tonight) [yeah]
By the end of the night
Imma have you drunk and throwing up (hey! ) [throwing up]
By the end of the night [oohh]
Imma have you so fucked up! (so fucked up! )
And now the parted heated
'Cuz I got a hot girl in the club
I'm feelin' so conceited (yeah! )
'Cuz everybody is giving me love (uh, uh)
But hold up, wait a minute (uh huh)
'Cuz my cup is going empty
I need someone to refill me
I'm trynna to get drunk (me too)
I'm on Patron, Tequila [yeah, yeah]
I'm drunk on Margarita
That Patron, Tequila [yeah, yeah]
Me and my mamacita
Hey girl (hey girl)
Where's your drink?
We goin' all get real drunk tonight (get real drunk tonight)
Hey girl
I got bud we can all get fucked up tonight (get fucked up tonight) [yeah]
By the end of the night
Imma have you drunk and throwing up (hey! ) [throwing up]
By the end of the night
Imma have you so fucked up! (so fucked up! )
Who wanna get fucked up? [I do, I do]
Who wanna get fucked up? [I do, I do]
Who wanna get drunk? (me) [me]
Who wanna get drunk? (I'm already drunk) [me]
Who wanna get fucked up? (haha) [I do, I do]
Who wanna get fucked up?(I ain't stopping them) [I do, I do]
Who wanna get drunk? [me]
Who wanna get drunk? (let's have another one)
I'm on Patron, Tequila
I'm drunk on Margarita
That Patron, Tequila [yeah, yeah]
Me and my mamacita (put your drinks up!)
Hey girl (hey girl)
Where's your drink?
We goin' all get real drunk tonight
Hey girl
I got bud we can all get fucked up tonight
By the end of the night
Imma have you drunk and throwing up
By the end of the night
Imma have you so fucked up! [Imma have you so fucked up!]
Put your drinks up!
Put your drinks up!
Put your drinks up!
Put your drinks up!
I'm on Patron, Tequila
I'm drunk on Margarita
That Patron, Tequila
Me and my mamacita
SWAY MY WAY.
Book/s I'm reading right now.
Wicked -Gregory Mguire// Shoeholics Anonymous
Books I love.
1.) The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini
We had to read this for our LITERA2 class back when I was a senior in college, and I have to say that this book is unbelievably amazing.
Never in my life have I read a book that had tremendous power to move me to such great depths of my emotions.
I give it a five thumbs up! A real must read.
My favorite line: "For you a thousand times over."
2.) P.S. I love you by Cecila Ahern
A book that was recommended to me by one of my best college friends.
It's somewhat like the movie (which she and I watched together as well), but much better.
To those who are in the process of grieving due to a loss, I strongly suggest that you grab a copy right now.
It's not just a good read, but it'll also help you process your emotions and find happiness in the end.
My favorite line: "...There are worse sins in the world than learning to be happy again."
3.) Star Girl by Jerry Spinelli
A children's book that's made for adults as well. Recommended by my cousin who is an absolute bookworm.
It's about a new student in Meca High named Stargirl.
She's different. Intelligent. Quirky. and very much mysterious.
It's a book on belonging, conformity, falling in-love, and hope.
What's not to love about this book?
"Dear John," the letter read. And with those two words, a heart was broken and two lives changed forever.
I immediately wanted to write something after reading it, so here I am pouring my thoughts onto my 14" Compaq.
How should I describe a book such as this one? I've never really written a book review with much consideration. Not until I was in high school of course when we needed to do it for class. I've always been a lover of books, and always in my vocabulary means ever since I was in high school. Maybe it was due to the poems we were required to read, or the short stories that we discussed in class...I can't quite pin point the exact reason or time, but ever since then I've been a “bookaholic”
DEAR JOHN.
I guess it's safe to say that it was different. I can’t seem to classify it as a typical love story, but at the same time it somewhat fits into that category. A not so typical love story meaning it only happens to a quarter of a margin of people living on this earth, but typical in a sense that it's possible to have happened in fiction, on paper, in hopes and in dreams. I'm not going to give away too much, especially because I'm sure a lot of you are planning to read this book because of the film about to be released. But I do want to say a few things.
The book, was very Nicholas Sparks. He always had a mind that worked in a way that could conjure scenarios that make people (especially girls) go “I wish for a love exactly like that.” He was the first author that actually touched my heart, made it ache, make me want to cry and laugh at the same time and of course believe in love. He made my tear ducts dry up after reading “A walk to remember”, believe in old love with “Nights in Rodanthe”, trust time with it’s healing powers in “Message in a Bottle”, and of course simply believe in good old L.O.V.E. with his ever romantic “The Notebook”. Hell he was even the first man who made my dad cry by the pool side while reading the last book I mentioned.
Did I like it? For the most part, I did. It touched me in just the right places and was able to re-surface just the right emotions. It didn’t strike me too much as maudlin or over rated. It was lukewarm, and wonderful. I’ve somewhat have been a believer of love at first sight and having read about the love story of John and Savannah has made it easier to do so. In real life, I hardly hear stories which start with “When we locked eyes, I knew instantly…” or “Yes, it was truly love at first sight.” So having read this book gives me a little bit of hope that it might be possible to have something like it or at least something to that effect.
After reading this book, it made me realize a couple of reasons why I love to read. I do feel bad (I’m not sure if it’s the right word) for people who think of reading as a task rather than as leisure. I guess it’s all a matter of perspective. But as a lover of books it amazes me how a story, an author or even just one line from a chapter of a book can transport you to different places. I love how different words can be strung together and evoke such strong emotions you never thought you’d have. By reading, I feel more human in a way where I realize to what extent something can affect me. I like testing myself at times, and discoveries are always good. So whenever something from a book strikes me, whether it may be a line, a paragraph, in the blurb or even in the dedication, I always pause and think about why it struck me. By doing this, I get to know myself more and realize where I stand in life.
It’s also nice to know that even if in reality some things are not achievable, it’s possible to just live vicariously through characters that have been conjured up by such talented authors. For at least a day or two, or a week even…you get lost in a world where anything is possible. You get to go on adventures, or suddenly have magical powers. You get to fall in love and dream and be different. It’s such a great catharsis, and of course an awesome way to exercise your mind and widen your vocabulary.
I’ve always known that I’ve read a good book when I can’t seem to part ways with it. It’s as if the end of the book signifies the end of my relationship with the characters. It’s the way I felt when Harry said goodbye to Clare in “The Time Travelers Wife” (Audrey Niffiniger), my heart broke the same time Erik’s did when Stargirl Callaway moved to another city in “Star Girl” and the way I wanted to be different and lovable during the final pages of “Love, Stargirl” (both by Jerry Spinelli). It’s the way I knew the words “For you a thousand times over” would affect me differently after reading “The Kite Runner” by Khaled Hosseini. How I was for certain that Noah and Allie would be together wherever they were in "The Notebook", and yes even how Harry, Ron and Hermionie would be able to save the magical world. With a good book, Shakespeare was right in saying “parting is such sweet sorrow.” It’s so hard to let go because the characters seem to have been part of your life, and when their heart breaks… yours does too. When they receive good news, its as if you want to jump for joy and celebrate with them.
I’m very glad that I had 2 days off my busy schedule to be able to read. And I’m happy as well that the book I chose didn’t disappoint me. I’m pretty excited for the movie, although I’m sure that there will be some slight differences. I’m just hoping that it doesn't disappoint. It’s weird how the book is almost always so much better than the movie (except for P.S. I love you). Anyway, Channing Tatum is there…at least there’s some eye candy J
I hope children now a days get the hang of reading. I hope that one day they get to feel the way I feel whenever I’m immersed in a good book.
I absolutely can’t wait to find another book, which will make it impossible for me to put down because of its awesomeness. I am waiting for the day when a line or a paragraph or the whole book will make my heart ache because I know that the ending is near. I can’t wait to find a good read that would distress me and make me feel all sorts of wonderful and beautiful.
Till then, I shall live in the memory of John and Savannah, bask in their love for each other and the their fondness for the full moon.
The beginning of this entry was written on December 31, 2009 (Up until the ~*~*~*~). I just wasn't able to post it.
Here we are again, standing on the brink of an almost end and a new beginning. Another year has come and gone, and I feel as if it's time for me to take a look back on the 12 months that has gone by.
As unbelievable as it seems, time has passed by so quickly. back in June, I was about to embark on a new journey which was my post grad studies (medicine), and it seems as if I just closed my eyes for a few seconds and when I opened them again...December was waiting to engulf me with all it's Christmas spirit.
Has it already been 6 months?
I guess the calendars, Christmas gifts, and even the weather has given me enough evidence to believe so.
~*~*~*~*~
It is now January 10, 2010 (I like pronouncing this year as TWENTY-TEN, because it sounds better this way), the plentiful fireworks have been lit, the alcohol content in our body has shot up to an extra 80%(at least) and back down again, and for sure more than a handful of people have made their new year's resolution.
I've always wondered why people wait for start of a new year to make a positive change, but anyway I too am guilty of practicing such an old habit of the human race.
Last years resolutions were quite a lot:
*BE HAPPY! *Never settle for less than perfect (sometimes) *Never settle period. *Do your best in everything *Love yourself first. Seriously. *Be of service for others. *Dress up and look good for yourself :)
Obviously 2008 was a year filled with emotional drama. 2009 on the other hand can be comparable to a normal day. Nothing extra extraordinary, just...okay. So here are my 2010 resolutions.
*This year will be amazing. I will do at least one thing that I will never ever forget doing.
*Buy a new camera!
*Take more videos
*Do my best in everything I do (still)
*Be of service for others (still)
*Be grateful for everything that I have
*Always love.
*Forgive and Forget
*Fall in love
I know it's stupid to believe in jinxing your resolutions because you said them out loud. But that doesn't mean I don't believe in it...sort of. Although right now, I'd like to believe with all my heart, that because I said it allowed, I declared, I wrote it down...it will have more impact in my life.
2010, I'm hoping you'll be a kick ass year. Please don't let me down (:
With love,
Trina
I'll end this with a mash up of the top 25 songs of 2009, because music is just love.
I miss writing. Sometimes I feel like I have nothing to write about. Most of the time I know that there're so many thing that I can talk about with everything that's been happening in my life now, but I get to lazy so I don't.
So all I'm trying to say is.
I miss writing. I miss writing well. I miss writing. I miss reading what I wrote after writing it. I miss thinking "I'd like to look back on this someday" after reading what I wrote. I miss smiling after thinking "I'd like to look back on this someday".
I'm sure you get my point now.
I miss. But I am okay. And that's what's important
BeeTeeDoubleYou: Summer and all the 500 days Tom spent with her was awesome :)
Oh and check this out, they published my work again :)
It's been a month and 3 days since my last post. I swore to myself that I would never be this idle. At least a couple, maybe even just 2? But so far, I haven't got time to do things. Maybe I've been too preoccupied being the Trina that I am. Anyway, blogger...I have missed you.
A found a quote that sort of describes me. Okay, who am I kidding. This is who I am. But I'm not sure I'd want to be this person anymore.
"So if you can't stay, walk away slowly. Rip the plaster off bit by bit, piece by piece. Because I'd rather feel that than nothing at all. "
She'll be the teacher. You be the subject. I'll be the observer. Let's do this.
I dont ever want to feel Like I did that day Take me to the place I love Take me all the way
I've had a lot of questions swimming in my head ever since I could start thinking. I am a thinker, and it's a curse and a gift all at once. This time, I'd like to know just one thing...at least for now I just need to know the answer to this...
Where do the strong go?
When Train wrote another one of those "I can describe how you are feeling from point A to point Z" songs did they really know the answer to this question?
"Hey wait hey don't you know this is where the strong will go on"
Where do the strong go on? I'm done waiting. Tell me right about...now.
You were my ticket out of here And I was your dream come true. You gave me everything I wanted. Except........
I'm sure I've mentioned it before, how beautiful songs that mean so much to you end up becoming the very tune you wouldn't want to hear. I hate how it gets tainted with awful memories when situations become nasty, but at the same time...you can't stop listening to it over and over when you're on a certain high.
I'm saying this because it's one of those times when I do have to tuck away a piece of myself in a particular song and keep it on the down low for awhile. It's just a thing that I go through. Whenever a moment arises (for the good or the better), I associate them with certain songs. And if and when those moments come to an end, I feel like I have to bury a part of myself with it. Either I never dig up the grave I put that tune into or I take it out when I'm ready.
There's a reason why For Blue Skies is one of my favorite songs, and I've mentioned it before. It's pure, and honest. It has everything and nothing in it's whole 6 minutes and 32 seconds of being. I have loved this song like a child who has found the most precious sea shell on the ocean. I hold it with both hands, gingerly, not wanting it to shatter into pieces with the slightest movement. I place it on a velvet lined box which is easily accessible, but safe from harm.
As of the moment, I am in need of recuperating. I am in need of time apart from this song, because if I do listen to it...I just won't feel the same joy I feel whenever it's beat starts to emerge. I'd feel as if I have betrayed the song, because everything that it talks about is something that I can not do.
Just like the first line of the song...it really has been a long year. And I think it's time to just forget.
I can't listen to it, and feel it in its entirety. Not yet.
So goodbye for now. I'm sure when I'm ready, I'll pull you out from where I've hid you and feel the very essence of your message once again.
But because truly being here is so much; because everything here apparently needs us, this fleeting world, which in some strange way keeps calling to us. Us, the most fleeting of it all.
-from The Ninth Duino Elegy.
Cue in "Broken" by Lifehouse. (Somehow this movie also reminds me of the song "Come Home" by One Republic feat. Sara Bareilles.)
Perfect? I'd think so.
For the first time in a long time, I think that the movie would be up to par with the book written oh so heart wrenching-ly beautiful by Ms. Niffineger. I'm re-reading the book once more just to ready myself in case I have forgotten. Funny and absurd that I should do that because, a wonderful piece of fiction such as this isn't easily erased from your thoughts.
August 14. I've marked the date. Center of the theater, Row J, with a cheesy beef Jamaican patty, hot English tea from Starbucks, and a huge wad of Kleenex.
I'm ready.
The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home I'm holding on. I'm barely holding on to you.
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ABC About You Questions:
A - AVAILABLE: Very. B - BIRTHDAY: The 14th of June C - CRUSHING ON: Nick Carter still. D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: Good ol' H2O E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: Franessa Blanco. F - FAVORITE SONG: As of the moment, Knock You Down- Ms. Keri. G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: Both ;) H - HOMETOWN: Paranaque PI. I - IN LOVE WITH: Music. J - JUGGLE: I'd like to juggle medschool and extra cur. activities. K - KILLED SOMEONE: hell no. L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: From New York To Buffalo. Crazy drive! M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Strawberry. N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: Un O - ONE WISH: That I graduate medicine without any failures. P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: 8-700 Jollibee delivery. R- REASON TO SMILE: life. S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: "Baby I love your way" -Bob Marley T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 2:40pm. It's freaking gross. U - UNDERWEAR COLOR/PATTERN: Tidy whities. V - VEGETABLE(S): Yes please. W - WORST HABIT: Over thinking, yet at the same time...jumping into things. X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: laods. Y - YOYOS ARE: according to merriam-webster.com:
1. a thick grooved double disk with a string attached to its center axle that is made to fall and rise to the hand by unwinding and rewinding on the string
2. a condition or situation marked by regular fluctuations from one extreme to another
3. a stupid or foolish person
*Take your pic. Personally, I like what's behind door number 3.
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: The twins.
Random Questions About You:
Spell your name without vowels: Kthryn Nn Lrnzna What color do you wear most? Gray, black, white Least favorite color? furfel. What are you listening to? "Collide"- Dishwalla Are you happy with your life right now? Pwede na. I hate that answer. What is your favorite class in school? Probably Anatomy. I may be wrong though. When do you start back at school/college? June 15 Are you outgoing? Yes
Favorite pair of shoes? Right now it's a tie between my floral pumps from BCBGirl ooooorrrr my floral printed H&M flats. Where do you wish you were right now? In my own clinic in a well known hospital, after graduating Neurosurgery with flying colors. WOW.
THE CANS:
Can you dance? Ummm. Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth? Let's find out ;) haha Can you whistle? Yar. Write with both hands? Nope Walk with your toes curled? i just tried, and i can semi do it.
THE DO'S:
Do you believe there is life on other planets? still debating. Do you believe in miracles? A hundred percent yes. Do you believe in magic? Yes :) Love at first sight? Si Do you believe in Satan? :s mhmmm. Do you believe in Santa? I'd like to. It'll bring me joy. Do you know how to swim? A bit. Do you like roller coasters? Pwede na. Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows? basta no frogs.
THE HAVES:
Have you ever been on a plane? Yup Have you ever asked someone out? Yup Have you ever been asked out by someone? Yup Have you ever been to the ocean? Yeah Have you ever painted your nails? Every 2 weeks.
THE WHATS:
What is the temperature outside? very very hot. What was the last restaurant you ate at? Does take out count? If so Jollibee. If not Dencio's. What was the last thing you bought? chicken joy. What was the last thing on TV you watched? Erin Brockovitch. (TAMAD TO FIND THE CORRECT SPELLING!)
THE WHOS:
Who was the last person you IM'd? Angelo Wong. Who was the last person you took a picture of? Fidel V. Ramos. YAY! Who was the last person you said I love you to? My mum.
CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out: Yeah. Ever cried yourself to sleep? Once lang. Ever cried on your friend's shoulder? Yup. Ever cried over the opposite sex?: Yeah. Do you cry when you get an injury? Not really. Do certain songs make you cry? Haha starting notes palang, I'm bawling na. HAHA
HAPPY SECTION.
Are you a happy person? Yeah, despite what others say. haha What can make you happy? It's the simple things in life we forget :) Do you wish you were happier? Yeah. Can music make you happy? Most definitely.
LOVE SECTION.
How many times have you had your heart broken? None. Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them? Yeah.
LOOK AT ME.
What is your current hair color? Medium Brown Current piercings? Ear piercings. Have any tattoos? No Eye color? Brown. Not dark brown. Brown.
IN A BOY:
Favorite eye color: Blue. Brown. Short or long hair: Basta not kalbo or even remotely close to kalbo. Height: Tall! Best clothing: The best sports jackets please.
HAVE YOU EVER
Been to jail: Nope Mooned someone: Nope. Ran away from home: I pretended to. Laughed so hard you cried: All the time! Cried in school: Yeah. Thrown up in a store: Nope Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today: HAHAHAHAAHHAAHAH nuff' said. Gone skinny dipping: nope
THIS OR THAT
Pepsi or Coke: Dr. Pepper. McDonald's or Burger King: Mickey D's. Single or Group Dates: Single Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate. Strawberries or Blueberries: strawberries Meat or Veggies: Both. TV or Movie: Both Guitar or Drums?: Guitar. Adidas or Nike: Nike. Chinese or Mexican: chinese Cheerios or Corn Flakes: Special K nalang. Cake or Pie: Cake! MTV or VH1: Music Television.
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I can't wait to look back on this entry after a few years, months, or even just weeks. There are probably some things that'll change within that time limit. And I'm pretty interested to find out how different I was.
Musicians whose first name starts with the letter "J" and whose last name starts with the letter "M" are fantastic.
I'm listening to Jason Mraz right now. Truthfully, there's never a day that goes by that I don't, because that would just be very un-trina like. And because right now I am on another one of those, what do you call them? "music highs"? That I would like to say a few words.
Mr. Geek in the Pink...You are so fan-freakin'-tastic. Good Job :)
(Thank you to music and lyrics for the image)
Also if you'd like to download new songs... do try the following:
1. Details in the Fabric -Jason Mraz ft. James Morrison -It's an instant pick you upper!
2. Try, Try, Try, -Jason Mraz -Just because he's amazing.
from a new find of mine (thanks best)
3. Breathe Slow -Alesha Dixon
and lastly,
4. Liar Liar -Girlicioius
Because it's healthy to be ditzy like this every once in awhile
i know i gave you everything you like because you still give me butterflies if we just try try try just to be ni-ni-nice then the world would be a better place for you and I if we just live our lives putting our differences aside oh that would be so beautiful to me
Last night I spent time with my A39 family. My "son" is doing so much better. I had wonderful sushi for dinner. I had wonderful sushi for lunch. I will have my mani ped done tomorrow. The box came in. I have three new books. I have three new pairs of shoes.
I haven't slept (I know what you're thinking, what's new right?), I'm hungry, and I'm facing a very long day ahead of me. But here's the thing...I'm feeling perfectly energized to the point that I can just hop in the shower, go to school, go to ortigas, go to capitol, go back home, and still have the same amount of energy at the end of the day.
I'm about to contribute to something which I believe has a good cause. Kudos to my friend Pat Jamlang who is the genius of it all (you don't hear me dishing out compliments towards you often, so drink this one all up). We're starting a new blog for the love of writing, for the love of people, for the love of randomness, and most especially for the love of life.
That's probably the explanation to my fantastic feeling. Don't you just love that certain sensation you get whenever you're excited about doing something new? Or having that passion for something you just love? This is something like that. Wait, scratch that...this is exactly like that.
So this is for everyone who just is. For everyone who wants to get their voice heard. For people who want the good to win over the evil. And for everyone who just believe that there's something out there worth talking about.
Sometimes, I wish that I was the weather You'd bring me up in conversation forever And when it rained, I'd be the talk of the day
Oh, sometimes I wish that I was a cold beer I'd rest assured that you would hold me near I'd be guaranteed to be just what you need
CHORUS
And there could be no other way, 'cause you're so, you're so lame Your tired words are all, they're all the same Yeah I would walk and I'd surely walk away If I wasn't such a sucker for you
Sometimes, I wish that I was a bong hit You'd let me in and you would love every minute And tell the room the things I did to you...
Oh and there could be no other way, 'cause you're so lame Your tired words are all, your tired words are all the same Yeah I would walk you know I'd surely walk away If I wasn't such a sucker for you
I see your world with rosey-colored glasses on Wanna right what I see wrong I could never have that power over you
Someday, I'm gonna pack up and leave this town I'm gonna get my own things goin' on And when I do, I'll forget I'll forget I'll forget about how, how you're so, you're so lame Your tired words are all, your tired words are all the same And I would walk you know I'd, I'd walk away If I wasn't such a sucker for you I wasn't such a sucker for you I wasn't such a sucker for you
six numbers, one more to dial before I'm before you I tried to call been busy all night gave up waiting at daylight
excuse me Mrs. Busybody could you pencil me in when you can though we both know that the worst part about it is I would be free when you wanted me if you wanted me
ohhhhh... I am the man on the side hoping you'll make up your mind I am the one who will swallow his pride life as the man on the side
one of the many one of the few to stand back and wait for you
excuse me Mrs. Busybody could you pencil me in when you can though we both know that the worst part about it is I would be free when you wanted me if you wanted me, if you wanted me
ohhhh... I am the man on the side hoping you'll make up your mind I am the one who will swallow his pride Life as the man on the side Life as the man on the side
I fell in love with the dream that I built of you playing the part of the queen taking my own advice I'm giving up tonight good luck to you and the king
excuse me Mrs. Busybody could you pencil me in though we both know that the worst part about it is I would be free when you wanted me if you wanted me, if you wanted me
ohhhhh.... I am the man on the side hoping you'll make up your mind I am the one who will swallow his pride life as the man you know life as the man living life as the man on the side
I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore I don't know how to land and not race to your door I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore
I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore I'm not sure that I really ever could Hold on to your hotel key in your Bedroom neighborhood be sleep-walking in Hollywood
I'm gonna steer clear Burn up in your atmosphere I'm gonna steer clear Cause I'd die if I saw you I'd die if I didn't see you there So I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore
I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore I get lost on the boulevard at night Without your voice to tell me I love you, take a right the ten and the two is the loneliest sight
I'm gonna steer clear Burn up in your atmosphere I'm gonna steer clear Cause I'd die if I saw you I'd die if I didn't see you
I'm gonna steer clear, oh yeah Burn up in your atmosphere here I'm gonna steer clear Cause I'd die if I saw you I'd die if I didn't see you there see you there
I think I'm gonna stay gonna stay in the gray think I'm gonna stay And all the street lights say nevermind nevermind All the canyon lines say nevermind Sunset says we see this all the time, nevermind, never you mind.
Where ever I go Whatever I do I wonder where I am I wonder where I am In relation to you Where ever you go Where ever you are I watch your life play out in pictures from afar Where ever you go Whatever I do I wonder where I am In my relationship to you Wherever you go Where ever you are I watch that pretty life play out in pictures from afar
A couple of my favorite songs these past few days.
Revelry by Kings of Leon
What a night for a dance, you know I'm a dancing machine With the fire in my bones and the sweet taste of kerosene I get lost in the light so high don't wanna come down To face the loss of the good thing that i have found
Woo hoo hoo Woo hoo hoo
In the dark of the night I can hear you calling my name With the hardest of hearts I still feel full of pain So I drink and I smoke and I ask you if *you're* ever around Even though it was me who drove us right in the ground
See the time we shared it was precious to me But all the while I was dreaming of revelry
Gonna run baby run like a stream down a mountainside With the wind at my back I won't ever even bat an eye Just know it was you all along who had a hold of my heart But the demon and me was the best of friends from the start
So the time we shared it was precious to me All the while I was dreaming of revelry Dreaming of revelry
And I told myself for the way you go, it rained so hard it felt like snow Everything came tumbling down on me In the back of the woods in the dark of the night Palest of the old moonlight Everything just felt so incomplete
Dreaming of revelry Dreaming of revelry Dreaming of revelry Dreaming of revelry
I Do Not Hook Up by Kelly Clarkson
Oh, sweetheart, put the bottle down You've got too much talent I see you through those bloodshot eyes There's a cure, you've found it Slow motion, sparks You've caught that chill Now don't deny it But boys will be boys Oh, yes, they will They don't wanna define it Just give up the game and get into me If you're looking for thrills then get cold feet
Oh, no I do not hook up, up I go slow So if you want me, I don't come cheap Keep your hand in my hand, Your heart on your sleeve Oh, no I do not hook up, up I fall deep Cause the more that you try, the harder I'll fight To say goodnight
I can't cook no, but I can clean Up the mess she left Lay your head down and feel the beat As I kiss your forehead This may not last but this is now So love the one you're with You wanna chase but you're chasin' your tail A quick fix won't ever get you well
Oh, no I do not hook up, up I go slow So if you want me, I don't come cheap Keep your hand in my hand, Your heart on your sleeve Oh, no I do not hook up, up I fall deep Cause the more that you try, the harder I'll fight To say...
Cause I feel The distance Between us Could be over With the snap of your finger Oh no!
Oh, no I do not hook up, up I go slow So if you want me, I don't come cheap Keep your hand in my hand, Your heart on your sleeve Oh, no I do not hook up, up I fall deep Cause the more that you try, the harder I'll fight To say... Cause the more that you try, the harder I'll fight To say goodnight
