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LOSE YOURSELF.
Drops of Jupiter by Train
Now that shes back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey, hey,
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that theres time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like june, hey, hey
Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated
Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there?
Now that shes back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that theres time to grow, hey, hey
Now that shes back in the atmosphere
Im afraid that she might think of me as plain ol jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land
Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the milky way
And tell me, did venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there?
Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know youre wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me
Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the milky way
But tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated
And tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there?
Na na na na na na
Black Balloon by the Goo Goo Dolls
Baby's black balloon makes her fly
I almost fell into that hole in your life
And you're not thinking about tomorrow
'Cause you were the same as me
But on your knees
A thousand other boys could never reach you
How could I have been the one
I saw the world spin beneath you
And scatter like ice from the spoon
That was your womb
Comin' down the world turned overAnd angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
Or are you someone's prayer
You know the lies they always told you
And the love you never knew
What's the things they never showed you
That swallowed the light from the sun
Inside your room
Comin' down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I'll go on to bring you home
All because I'm
All because I'm
And I'll become
What you became to me
Sway by Bic Runga
Don't stray
Don't ever go away
I should be much to smart for this
You know it gets the better Of me
sometimes, When you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you
Pull me out in time
Don't let me drown
Let me down
I say its all because of you
And here I go
Losing my control
I'm practising your name
So I can say it to your face
It doesn't seem right
To look you in the eye
And let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth
Indeed its time
Tell you why
I say its infinately true
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
And there's no cure
And no way to be sure
Why everythings turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
It makes me so tired
I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart
My logic has been torn apart
And now it all turns sour
Come sweeten every afternoon
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
Its all because of you
Its all because of you
Cater 2 U by Destiny's Child
Baby I see you working hard
Wanna let you know i'm proud
Let ya know that I admire what you do
Don't know if I need to reassure you
My life would be purposeless without you
If I want it (got it) when I ask you (you provide it)
You inspire me to be better
You challenge me for the better
Sit back and let me pour out my love letter
Let me help you
Take off your shoes
Untie your shoe strings
Take off your cuff links
What you wanna eat boo?
Let me feed you
Let me run your bath water
Whatever you desire
I'll aspire
Sing you a song
Turn the game on
I'll brush your hair
Help you put your do-rag on
Want a foot rub
Want a manicure
Baby i'm yours, I wanna cater 2 u boy
Chorus:
Let me cater 2 u
Cause baby this is your day
Do anything for my man
Baby you blow me away
I got your slippers, your dinner
Your dessert and so much more
Anything you want,
Let me cater to you
Inspire me from the heart
Can't nothing tear us apart
Your all I want in a man
I put my life in your hands
I got your slippers, your dinner,
Your dessert and so much more
Anything you want, I wanna cater 2 u
Baby i'm happy your home
Let me hold you in my arms
I just want to take the stress away from you
Makin' sure that i'm doing my part
Boy is there something you need me to do
If you want it, (i got it)
Say the word and (i will try it)
I know whatever i'm not fullfillin' no other woman is willing
I'm gone fullfill you my body and spirit
I promise ya
I'll keep myself up
Remain the same chick you fell in love with
I'll keep it tight
I'll keep my figure right
I'll keep my hair fixed, be rocking the hottest outfits
When you come home late
Tap me on my shoulder, i'll roll over
Baby I heard you, i'm here to serve you,
this love you need, to give it is my joy
All I wanna do is cater to you boy
Repeat Chorus
Wanna give my breath, my strength, my will to live
That's the least I can do
Let me cater to you
Through the good, the bad, the ups and the downs
I'll still be here for you
Let me cater to you
'cos you're beautiful
I love the way you are
Fullfill your every desire
Your wish is my command
I wanna cater to my man
Your heart
So pure your love shines through
The darkness we'll get through
So much of me is you
I wanna cater to my man
Let me cater 2 u
Cause baby this is your day
Do anything for my man
Baby you blow me away
I got your slippers, your dinner
Your dessert and so much more
Anything you want,
Let me cater to you
Inspire me from the heart
Can't nothing tear us apart
You all I want in a man
I put my life in your hands
I got your slippers, your dinner,
Your dessert and so much more
Anything you want, I wanna cater 2 u
Melt with You by Modern English
Moving forward using all my breath
Making love to you was never second best
I saw the world thrashing all around your face
Never really knowing it was always mesh and lace
Ill stop the world and melt with you
Youve seen the difference and its getting better all the time
Theres nothing you and I wont do
Ill stop the world and melt with you
(you should know better)
Dream of better lives the kind which never hate
(you should see why)
Dropped in the state of imaginary grace
(you should know better)
I made a pilgrimage to save this humans race
(you should see why)
What Im comprehending a race that long gone bye
(Ill stop the world) Ill stop the world and melt with you
(Ill stop the world) youve seen the difference and its getting better all the time
(lets stop the world) theres nothing you and I wont do
(lets stop the world) Ill stop the world and melt with you
The futures open wide
(lets stop the world) Ill stop the world and melt with you
(lets stop the world) Ive seen some changes but its getting better all the time
(lets stop the world) theres nothing you and I wont do
(lets stop the world) Ill stop the world and melt with you
Ill stop the world and melt with you (lets stop the world)
Youve seen the difference and its getting better all the time (lets stop the world)
Theres nothing you and I wont do (lets stop the world)
Ill stop the world and melt with you (lets stop the world)
Ill stop the world and melt with you (lets stop the world)
Ill stop the world and melt with you (lets stop the world)
I'm Yours- Jason Mraz
Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
Now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
And nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved
So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
Scooch on over closer dear
And i will nibble your ear
I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue
But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours
Please don't, please don't, please don't
There's no need to complicate
Cause our time is short
This oh this this is out fate, I'm yours.
IT REMINDED ME TWICE THAT I WAS ALIVE.
Drops of Jupiter- Train
Repeat. Repeat. Repeat.
Favorite Line:
She Acts like summer and walks like rain
Black Balloon- The Goo Goo Dolls
Favorite line/s:
Comin' down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
Or are you someone's prayer
Sway- Bic Runga
Favorite line/s:
THE WHOLE SONG! This is my ULTIMATE, favorite song of all time :)
Cater 2 U- Destiny's Child
Favorite line/s: 'Cos you're beautiful, I love the way you are. Fulfill your every desire, your wish is my command, I want to cater to my man..."
"Baby you blow me away..."
This version is done by a very talented Filipino who calls himself "Passion". He's based in San Fo.
Go to Youtube to check out his other songs. He did a wonderful version of "True" by Ryan Cabrera as well as other mixes
Melt with You- Modern English
Favorite line/s: "I made a pilgrimage to save this human race..."
"I'll stop the world and melt with you. You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time. There's nothing you and I won't do..."
I'm Yours- Frank Hagen (Originally by Jason Mraz)
I saw this version in facebook which was uploaded by one of my friends (Hi Bebang!)
Definitely one of the sweetest songs I have ever heard. A very vital part of my 2008 summer song collection :)
Favorite line/s: "...I tried to be cool, but you're so hot that I melted."
"I won't hesitate no more, no more, it cannot wait, I'm yours."
"I won't hesitate no more, no more it cannot wait...I'm sure"
HELLO SUNSHINE.
T.R.I.N.A.
My friends call me Trina.
Some call me Trins.
I like pina colladas.
I love Tea/Coffee
Japanese food is heaven
I love taking pictures.
I love having mini-concerts all over my house which includes dancing in my bathroom, and singing in my shower.
That also means I love being a dork.
I love to read just because it's wonderful!
Powerbooks/Fullybooked/coffee bean is my safe place
My favorite place in my house is my bathroom
Two of my favorite words are STELLAR and SUBLIME (ergo stellarsublime_)
I'd skip a main course and go straight to dessert anytime.
I hate eating breakfast food if it is not served during breakfast time (Except when we eat in pancake house). Jess has got my back.
I have the best friends in the world.
I can't ask for a better family (Crazy crazy!)
I absolutely adore the rain.
I think laughter is the best melody.
I still want to be a mermaid.
Give me the dance floor and I'll rock the night away.
Oh and music...practically my life.
This is what you call randomness.
Anything goes.
RESOLUTIONS FOR 2009:
*BE HAPPY!
*Never settle for less than perfect (sometimes)
*Never settle period.
*Do your best in everything
*Love yourself first. Seriously.
*Be of service for others.
*Dress up and look good for yourself :)
Some of my favorite Quotations:
"I’m erased. I’m gone. I’m nothing. And then the world is free to flow into me like water into an empty bowl…. And… I see. I hear. But not with eyes and ears. I’m not outside my world anymore, and I’m not really inside it either. The thing is, there’s no difference between me and the universe. The boundary is gone. I am it and it is me. I am a stone, a cactus thorn. I am rain. I like that most of all, being rain.” --Star Girl
"Perhaps we give the best of our hearts uncritically, to those who hardly think of us in return." --Lucas Scott, OTH
and my all time favorite:
"Anyone who says sunshine brings happiness has never danced in the rain...fairy tales are more than true, not because they tell us that dragons exist, but because they tell us that dragons can be beaten. " --G.K. Chesterton
In the NOW:
Date: 05/11/09 at 11:36PM
Currently munching on: Still nothing. Craving for: Nothing. Love drink of the moment: Cold unsweetened tea with 2 packets of Splenda Currently watching: Bride Wars Browsing through: Wicked by Greggory Mguire Currently feeling: Sleeepppyyyy In need of: a lot of prayers. Current plans: Accept. Control. Love. Ear Candy of the present: Patron (Tequila) by Paradiso Girls ft. lil John
Favorite Lines:
I'm feelin' so conceited (yeah! )
'Cuz everybody is giving me love (uh, uh)
I'm on Patron, Tequila (YUN LANG EH! haha)
Let's go!
Hey!
What's happenin'?
What you drinkin' tonight girl?
Drinkin' tonight with me!
Put your drinks up!
Hey girl
Where's your drink?
We goin' all get real drunk tonight
Hey girl
I got bud we can all get fucked up tonight (get fucked up tonight)
By the end of the night
Imma have you drunk and throwing up (hey! )
By the end of the night
Imma have you so fucked up! (have you so fucked up)
They said what you drinkin'? (what you drinkin'?)
Let me buy you a couple of rounds
And I said what you thinkin'? (yeah! )
I ain't the type of girl to get down
But I can party wit cha (uh huh)
And bring my girls aside (uh huh)
Tell the bartender bring the ice
And let 'em know I'm on Patron
I'm on Patron, Tequila
I'm drunk on Margarita [on Margaritas]
That Patron, Tequila [that Patron]
Me and my mamacita (yeah! ) [me and my mamacita]
Hey girl (hey girl)
Where's your drink?
We goin' all get real drunk tonight (get real drunk tonight) [real drunk tonight]
Hey girl
I got bud we can all get fucked up tonight (get fucked up tonight) [yeah]
By the end of the night
Imma have you drunk and throwing up (hey! ) [throwing up]
By the end of the night [oohh]
Imma have you so fucked up! (so fucked up! )
And now the parted heated
'Cuz I got a hot girl in the club
I'm feelin' so conceited (yeah! )
'Cuz everybody is giving me love (uh, uh)
But hold up, wait a minute (uh huh)
'Cuz my cup is going empty
I need someone to refill me
I'm trynna to get drunk (me too)
I'm on Patron, Tequila [yeah, yeah]
I'm drunk on Margarita
That Patron, Tequila [yeah, yeah]
Me and my mamacita
Hey girl (hey girl)
Where's your drink?
We goin' all get real drunk tonight (get real drunk tonight)
Hey girl
I got bud we can all get fucked up tonight (get fucked up tonight) [yeah]
By the end of the night
Imma have you drunk and throwing up (hey! ) [throwing up]
By the end of the night
Imma have you so fucked up! (so fucked up! )
Who wanna get fucked up? [I do, I do]
Who wanna get fucked up? [I do, I do]
Who wanna get drunk? (me) [me]
Who wanna get drunk? (I'm already drunk) [me]
Who wanna get fucked up? (haha) [I do, I do]
Who wanna get fucked up?(I ain't stopping them) [I do, I do]
Who wanna get drunk? [me]
Who wanna get drunk? (let's have another one)
I'm on Patron, Tequila
I'm drunk on Margarita
That Patron, Tequila [yeah, yeah]
Me and my mamacita (put your drinks up!)
Hey girl (hey girl)
Where's your drink?
We goin' all get real drunk tonight
Hey girl
I got bud we can all get fucked up tonight
By the end of the night
Imma have you drunk and throwing up
By the end of the night
Imma have you so fucked up! [Imma have you so fucked up!]
Put your drinks up!
Put your drinks up!
Put your drinks up!
Put your drinks up!
I'm on Patron, Tequila
I'm drunk on Margarita
That Patron, Tequila
Me and my mamacita
SWAY MY WAY.
Book/s I'm reading right now.
Wicked -Gregory Mguire// Shoeholics Anonymous
Books I love.
1.) The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini
We had to read this for our LITERA2 class back when I was a senior in college, and I have to say that this book is unbelievably amazing.
Never in my life have I read a book that had tremendous power to move me to such great depths of my emotions.
I give it a five thumbs up! A real must read.
My favorite line: "For you a thousand times over."
2.) P.S. I love you by Cecila Ahern
A book that was recommended to me by one of my best college friends.
It's somewhat like the movie (which she and I watched together as well), but much better.
To those who are in the process of grieving due to a loss, I strongly suggest that you grab a copy right now.
It's not just a good read, but it'll also help you process your emotions and find happiness in the end.
My favorite line: "...There are worse sins in the world than learning to be happy again."
3.) Star Girl by Jerry Spinelli
A children's book that's made for adults as well. Recommended by my cousin who is an absolute bookworm.
It's about a new student in Meca High named Stargirl.
She's different. Intelligent. Quirky. and very much mysterious.
It's a book on belonging, conformity, falling in-love, and hope.
What's not to love about this book?
Books waiting to be read.
1.) Constant Princess -Philippa Gregory
2.) The Historian -Elizabeth Kostova
3.) A Swiftly Tilting Planet -Madeleine L'engle
4.) Sense and Sensibility -Jane Austin
T A G B O A R D
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On writing your own tragedy.
3:30 AM - Tuesday, July 21, 2009
I'm sure I've mentioned it before, how beautiful songs that mean so much to you end up becoming the very tune you wouldn't want to hear. I hate how it gets tainted with awful memories when situations become nasty, but at the same time...you can't stop listening to it over and over when you're on a certain high.
I'm saying this because it's one of those times when I do have to tuck away a piece of myself in a particular song and keep it on the down low for awhile. It's just a thing that I go through. Whenever a moment arises (for the good or the better), I associate them with certain songs. And if and when those moments come to an end, I feel like I have to bury a part of myself with it. Either I never dig up the grave I put that tune into or I take it out when I'm ready.
There's a reason why For Blue Skies is one of my favorite songs, and I've mentioned it before. It's pure, and honest. It has everything and nothing in it's whole 6 minutes and 32 seconds of being. I have loved this song like a child who has found the most precious sea shell on the ocean. I hold it with both hands, gingerly, not wanting it to shatter into pieces with the slightest movement. I place it on a velvet lined box which is easily accessible, but safe from harm.
As of the moment, I am in need of recuperating. I am in need of time apart from this song, because if I do listen to it...I just won't feel the same joy I feel whenever it's beat starts to emerge. I'd feel as if I have betrayed the song, because everything that it talks about is something that I can not do.
Just like the first line of the song...it really has been a long year. And I think it's time to just forget.
I can't listen to it, and feel it in its entirety. Not yet.
So goodbye for now. I'm sure when I'm ready, I'll pull you out from where I've hid you and feel the very essence of your message once again.
But because truly being here is so much; because everything here apparently needs us, this fleeting world, which in some strange way keeps calling to us. Us, the most fleeting of it all.
-from The Ninth Duino Elegy.
Cue in "Broken" by Lifehouse. (Somehow this movie also reminds me of the song "Come Home" by One Republic feat. Sara Bareilles.)
Perfect? I'd think so.
For the first time in a long time, I think that the movie would be up to par with the book written oh so heart wrenching-ly beautiful by Ms. Niffineger. I'm re-reading the book once more just to ready myself in case I have forgotten. Funny and absurd that I should do that because, a wonderful piece of fiction such as this isn't easily erased from your thoughts.
August 14. I've marked the date. Center of the theater, Row J, with a cheesy beef Jamaican patty, hot English tea from Starbucks, and a huge wad of Kleenex.
I'm ready.
The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home I'm holding on. I'm barely holding on to you.
Musicians whose first name starts with the letter "J" and whose last name starts with the letter "M" are fantastic.
I'm listening to Jason Mraz right now. Truthfully, there's never a day that goes by that I don't, because that would just be very un-trina like. And because right now I am on another one of those, what do you call them? "music highs"? That I would like to say a few words.
Mr. Geek in the Pink...You are so fan-freakin'-tastic. Good Job :)
(Thank you to music and lyrics for the image)
Also if you'd like to download new songs... do try the following:
1. Details in the Fabric -Jason Mraz ft. James Morrison -It's an instant pick you upper!
2. Try, Try, Try, -Jason Mraz -Just because he's amazing.
from a new find of mine (thanks best)
3. Breathe Slow -Alesha Dixon
and lastly,
4. Liar Liar -Girlicioius
Because it's healthy to be ditzy like this every once in awhile
i know i gave you everything you like because you still give me butterflies if we just try try try just to be ni-ni-nice then the world would be a better place for you and I if we just live our lives putting our differences aside oh that would be so beautiful to me
There's this "thing" that I do whenever I feel like I'm lost. May it be that I'm at a loss for the right words to say, or something deeper like losing my own sense of self. I do this often, not because I need to, but because let's just say --it's partly fun. My solution to finding myself again? It's very simple. I get lost even further.
I bet you're a bit confused so let me explain. What I meant by getting lost is that I get lost in the music. Whenever life throws me lemons, I don't make lemonade...heck I don't even make tequila! When life throws me lemons, I grab my i-pod, turn up the volume to 13, and get lost in the damn music.
I love how the melody rushes through my system, how the lyrics calm me down, or build me up, how the beat resonates in my body, and how for just five minutes, the world isn't the world... but is actually the world as I know it.
I adore how one song means the universe to my being, yet at the same time it means absolutely nothing to the person right next to me. It's amazing how it speaks to you in ways that only God and yourself can understand, and how everything just gets better after hearing a particular line or phrase in a song.
I believe that life is different for everybody. Pat recently mentioned that for him, life is like art. Others say life is falling madly in love. The rest say that life is a box of chocolates. My take on it is that life is definitely just like the music.
Everyone dances to a different tune, though sometimes two people find that they enjoy the same type of music. Some like it fast, some like it mellow, most are way too busy listening to the beat to the point that they miss the important message. Others, well others just like it the way it is.
We all have our different mechanisms for coping with life. For me, the best way is to listen to a song, turn up the volume, maybe dance your ass off a little bit...then get lost in it. And when you feel like you're ready, as the music comes to an end...you go and find yourself again.
Now, after reading what we've just written, we want to know your take on it.
Do you get lost in the music too? Do you dance to a different beat? Do you hear the same tune as we do? How is life as you know it?
Welcome to Because I Am.
A blog which consists of people with different views on life and plenty to offer.
We're doing this for the people out there who just is...for people who want to get their voice heard, people who want the good to win over evil, and for people who just believe that there's something out there worth talking about.
Tell us what you think, because we pretty much believe that you are too.
Whenever I end my posts, I usually put a few lines from a song at the bottom right of the page, but for now let me end it with this...a song I more often than not choose to get lost into:
Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day And head back to the Milky Way And tell me, did Venus blow your mind Was it everything you wanted to find And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there -"Drops of Jupiter" by Train
So, do you want to get lost with us too?
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ This entry can be foundHEREtoo :)
Sara Bareilles has to be exposed more. I'm not sure if she's the lyricist, but her music is beautiful. So beautiful that it's sad. Apparently, I'm an expert of finding something so beautiful to the point that it becomes sad. Sometimes, I'd rather find something so sad that it becomes beautiful, but after saying the words in my head over and again...it ends up sounding so...wrong.
Kudos to Ms. Sara Bareilles, the master of singing songs about beauty and sadness and being helpless, and finding the light at the end of the tunnel.
The tone she exhales as she breathes in and out are perfect for a girl who has had her heart broken by a man who seemed to be perfect for her, but really isn't. A woman who bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow, but still couldn't pin point the exact moment when it all just came crumbling down. And a lady who gives herself time to grieve the love that died, letting all the pain and sadness out by crying herself to sleep before picking up the pieces of her broken heart.
I am perfectly content and happy, but I somehow miss hearing these songs as I lie myself to sleep.
I think I'm going to bed with the sound of her soulful and heartbreaking voice tonight
With that in mind, let's hope for good dreams now shall we?
P.S. She has songs about falling in love with Mr. right too. Trust me. Haha
I'll leave you with my top 2 favorite Sara Bareilles songs.
GRAVITY
Something always brings me back to you. It never takes too long. No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone. You hold me without touch. You keep me without chains. I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your reign.
[CHORUS:] Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity. Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be. But you're on to me and all over me.
You loved me 'cause I'm fragile. When I thought that I was strong. But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.
[CHORUS]
I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on the ground. But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go. The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down
Something always brings me back to you. It never takes too long.
IN BETWEEN THE LINES (I just had to highlight it all)
Time to tell me the truth To burden your mouth for what you say No pieces of paper in the way Cause i cant continue pretending to choose The opposite sides on which we fall The loving you laters if at all No right minds could wrong be this many times
My memory is cruel Im queen of attention to details Defending intentions if he fails Until now, he told me her name It sounded familiar in a way I could have sworn i'd heard him say it ten thousand times If only i had been listening
Leave unsaid unspoken Eyes wide shut unopened You and me Always between the lines Between the lines
I thought i thought i was ready to bleed That we'd move from the shadows on the wall And stand in the center of it all Too late two choices to stay or to leave Mine was so easy to uncover He'd already left with the other So i've learned to listen through silence
Leave unsaid unspoken Eyes wide shut unopened You and me be You and me always be
I tell myself all the words he surely meant to say I'll talk until the conversation doesn't stay on Wait for me i'm almost ready When he meant let go
Leave unsaid unspoken Eyes wide shut unopened You and me Always be You and me Always between the lines
Please download the following right after reading this.
1. Gravity 2. Between the lines 3. Responsible 4. Undertow 5. Bittersweet 6. One Sweet Love
Ay nevermind, just download both her albums 1. Careful Confessions (2004) 2. Little Voice (2007)
I could try to forget what you do when i let you get
Through to me but then you do it over again
I could rage like a fire and you'd bring rain i desire
I haven't done the oh so famous "25 random things about me" survey that everyone's so hung up on. I'm really tempted to do it, but after clicking "make a new note" I would feel the laziness in me rise up, so I end up not doing it at all.
Anyway, one of the 25 random things about me for sure, is that I'm a lyrics girl. I always have been, and I probably always will be. Another one would be the fact that any form of intelligent writing fascinates me. May it be in a form of a poem, a short essay, a good novel, or most especially in a song. That goes hand in hand with random fact number 3 about me...Music is definitely one of my passions.
With this in mind, I'd like to share one of the songs that I listen to over and over again whenever I feel like it. It's one of my favorites. The song is entitled "FOR BLUE SKIES" by Strays Don't Sleep. The lyrics are amazing and the beat is simple and alluring to the point that for 6 plus plus minutes, my mind is transported to a world filled with sorrow, and beauty.
You've probably heard it before if you're a OTH fan. This was being played during Brooke's famous "This is how I Spent my Summer Lucas...Wanting you" speech.
So here's the lyrics. Read it. Listen to it. Get hypnotized by the words, by the music, by the meaning of every syllable the vocalist sings.
It's been a long year since we last spoke How's your halo? Just between you and I You and me and the satelites I never believed you I only wanted to Before all this what did I miss? Do you ever get homesick? I can't get used to it I can't get used to it I'll never get used to it I'll never get used to it Remember that night among those same stars We're in a red car you were sleep at my side Going in & out of the headlights Could I have saved you? Would that have betrayed you? I want to burn this film You alone with those pills What you couldn't do I willI forgive you I forgive you I forgive you I forgive you For blue blue skies I forgive you
It always leaves me in awe and fascination whenever a song could speak to me in one way, and then sends a very different message to another.
For me, it's about passion, love, relationships, death, longing, finding.
I just finished watching the movie "Failure to Launch" (2006), and I just have to say that the soundtrack is the cutest :)
My mum and I also just bonded a bit over what women supposedly do best... "cooking". I helped her mash, dice, cut, grate, etc. various food components to create a culinary masterpiece (It's actually just pizza pandesal, banana pancakes, lentejas soup, and adobo). Now I'm trying to relax with half a martini glass filled with red wine though it's 1:43 in the afternoon. Haha. Somehow red wine reminds me of one of the sexiest songs I've ever heard (Love in this club part 1 by Usher).
Another one of those friday nights are coming up with the barkada hanging out here in my house.
Invite: Hello Friends! Save this Frdiay for alcohol and Karaoke over at my house. Friends, Food, and Drinks are welcome. See you at 8ish! BE THERE!!!! :)
Hahaha See you girlies and boyz this fuhriday!
Now let's all be quite cute and sing along.
and one more just because I think it's really sexy.
This used to make me cry. and cry. and...well cry.
Something always brings me back to you. It never takes too long. No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.
You hold me without touch. You keep me without chains. I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.
CHORUS Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity. Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be. But you're on to me and all over me.
You loved me 'cause I'm fragile. When I thought that I was strong. But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.
CHORUS Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity. Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be. But you're on to me and all over me.
I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on the ground. But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go. The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down
I listen to it now, and it makes me sad. And sometimes I still shed a tear. And then eventually I smile. Sometimes I even laugh.
P.S. A new song from V baby. thanks love :)
One step too far All at once I'm falling Just like a star I'm burning for you Thought I could keep myself from feeling this way I guess that was my first mistake
Cause suddenly I'm walking' Down a dark street to your door Wanting you is driving' me insane And now my feet are standing Where they've never stood before Guided by a twist of fate
If I lose myself with you tonight Fall apart or hold on tight Wrong or right I won't be afraid Cause ever if my heart should break You'd be the best mistake I ever made
I'm in your room Now there's no denying' What's in your eyes When I look at you Two shadows talking' but they don't make a sound Words have lost their meaning now
And the air has turned electric Now I know the time is right To put myself into your hands And suddenly I'm shaking' As your fingers touch my skin I don't need to understand
And if tomorrow proves me wrong I swear I don't belong I know I'll carry on
So I will lose myself and bare my soul Take this chance cause heaven knows I'm so far gone, my choice is made And even if my heart should break
When I lose myself with you tonight Fall apart or hold on tight Wrong or right I'll always say You're the best mistake I ever made
I don't think
I need to put any lyrics here for this entry...right?
Everyday it rains my heart starts drowning my vision gets cloudy the flood moves around me Everyday it rains no sign of the light as the time goes by 40 days and 40 nights
I've been watching OTH non-stop since the beginning of December. There's really something about this show that captures my heart in more ways than one.
5x12: HUNDRED, is one of my favorite episodes.
"Lucas, you can't! I'm sorry, I'm sorry but you just can't because I love you. And because you fixed my car! Remember that day? Because that day changed everything. And I just, I didn't know it at that time. But when you fixed my car...you fixed my heart. And when you proposed to me two years ago I just wasn't ready. And I was lost, and scared, so I said someday...but someday's now Luke, it is. Someday is now, and I love you. Please don't leave me again. People always leave."
Hay hay hay. Nakakakilig talaga :)
La la la!
We made plans to grow old, Believe me there was truth in all those stories that I told. Lost in a simple game cat and mouse remain the same Are we the same people as before this came to light?
But I love the way you roll excuses off the tip of your tongue as I (slowly) slowly, quietly, slowly fall apart.
4:36 AM
Today was an okay day.
Wow. I haven't had an okay day in so long! In fact, I feel that today was a more than okay day. It was...a good day :) And saying that right now, out loud (yes I said it out loud) makes my heart smile.
I am calm.
I haven't been calm in so long, and I am definitely greatful for feeling this way. I am rejoicing in the fact that despite how the world is still pretty messed up, I am on my way to becoming okay. I savor the moment, I inhale deeply, and exhale slowly. Quite afraid and slightly feeling stupid for thinking that if I breathe too fast, my being calm will go along with it.
I just got home around 40 minutes or so ago, and here I am now browsing through my daily blogs, sipping my milk tea, and feeling the cool breeze that's coming from my electric fan. My cousins and I danced and drank the night away in Ascend and Embassy. I have not partied like that in so long. It was a good night. And can I just say that Embassy had some god damned wonderfreakingful music! I'm actually still on a high from listening to all those tunes. It was a mix, from the 90s (Spice Girls- "Stop") backtracking to the 80s (I forgot, but it was totally dance worthy), then fast forwarding to the now....the right now 2008/9 (Pitbull- "Go Girl", Ne-yo- "Closer", Katy Pery- "Hot Cold" etc. etc.)
It's weird, but there are certain moments in your life when you suddenly have that rush of energy filling your veins making your heart thump faster, and your smile a little bit wider. I had that moment about an hour ago. That moment you call...happiness. Yes, I was happy. I am once again amazed at how music always finds a way to squeeze itself in my whole being just to make me feel this way. I am once again greatful.
And as it happened, for a brief moment, I was really okay. For just a few minutes, I knew I was going to be okay, I was going to be happy, and I was going to be stronger and better. I am certain that there are days when my high will gradually drift away because of certain unexpected things, but that momentary feeling of happiness gives me hope.
I still feel the strawberry artic (mixed with Sprite) cruising it's way in my system, I'm just a tad bit hazy, my legs ache, my feet are killing me, and my toes feel like they're about to bleed bloody murder, but I am okay. I am good :) And no amount of alcohol, physical pain, or anything else for that matter can actually bring me down tonight. So I again inhale deeply, and exhale slowly. I savor this feeling. I cherish the moment.
Once more. Hello 2009, welcome to my life. :)
Oh the world its spinning now its trying to catch me up and tell me to appreciate the here and now
...I've got a couple of musicals that can fall under the "LSS" category.
"Racing on the thunder And rising with the heat It's gonna take a Superman To sweep me off my feet I need a hero I'm holding out for a hero till the end of the night." -Holding out for a hero: Footloose the Musical
"Hands touch, Eyes meet Sudden silence, sudden heat Hearts leap in a giddy whirl He could be that boy. I'm not that girl." -I'm not that girl: Wicked
"When I see depressing creatures With unprepossessing features I remind them on their own behalf To think of Celebrated heads of state or Specially great communicators Did they have brains or knowledge? Don't make me laugh! They were popular! Please- It's all about popular! It's not aptitude It's the way you're viewed So it's very shrewd to be Very very popular Like me!" -Popular: Wicked
"Since I was two or three My life planned out neat I'd get my law degree And then win my senate seat. A big white house back east All of the amenities Three kids at least, just like the Kennedys" -Serious: Legally Blonde the Musical
"No! that's the chip on my shoulder I hugged my mom and I told her With the chance I've been given I'm gonna be driven as hell
Though I can't take the day off I just think of the payoff You need a chip on your shoulder Little Miss Woods comma Elle" -Chip on my shoulder: Legally Blonde the Musical
"Living in the ghetto black is everywhere you go who would've thought I'd love a girl who's skin as white as winter snow
In my ivory tower life was just a hostess snack but now I've tasted chocolate and I'm never going back" -Without Love: Hairspray the Musical
"And she sighs, and she swoons and she's hummin' little tunes Even has a sorta glow What on earth could it be? Any hammerhead can see! That sigh! That glow! That swoon! Oh, no! She's in love!" -She's in love: Little Mermaid the Musical
"I don't need any lifetime comitements I don't need to get hitched tonight. I don't want to throw up your walls and defenses I don't mean to put on any pressure But I know when a thing is right And I spend every day reconfiguring my senses.
When we get to my house, take a look at that town Take a look at how far I've gone i will never go back Never look back anymore And it feels like my life led right to your side and will keep me there from now on Think about what you wanted Think about what could be Think of how I love you Say you'll move in with me Think of what's great about me and you Think of the bullshit we've both been through Think of what's past because we can do better! We can do better! We can do better than that! -We can do better than that: The Last Five Years
I can't wait to go to New York and watch them live on broadway. MUSICALS ARE ABSOLUTE LOVE. Case closed.
Is this feeling possible?! Hmmm...I can't believe I'm actually feeling a bit of the Christmas spirit. Even though it is one of my most favoritest (yes, I wanted my writing to be grammatically incorrect) holiday season of all time, somehow I thought I wouldn't be feeling it this year. I guess things are actually picking up.
Every once in awhile I listen to Lucas Scott's voice in the background of OTH's moving images and it helps. Just like what I said before, some of the best advice are the unsolicited ones.
ADVANCED MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE. LET'S ALL FEEL THE CHRISTMAS SPIRIT!
Here's a little Chris Brown just to help you enjoy the upcoming holiday even more :) Yay!
Moods that take me and erase me, and I'm painted black.
1:09 AM - Saturday, October 11, 2008
Title: Moods that take me and erase me, and I'm painted black.
A few of my favorite songs from the movie "ONCE".
"If you want me" by: The Swell Season
Are you really here or am I dreaming I can't tell dreams from truth for it's been so long since I have seen you I can hardly remember your face anymore
When I get really lonely and the distance causes our silence I think of you smiling with pride in your eyes a lover that sighs
If you want me satisfy me, if you want me satisfy me If you want me satisfy me, if you want me satisfy me
Are you really sure that you’d believe me when others say I lie I wonder if you could ever despise me when you know I really try to be a better one to satisfy you For your everything to me and I’ll do what you ask me if you’ll let me be, free
If you want me satisfy me, if you want me satisfy me If you want me satisfy me, if you want me satisfy me If you want me satisfy me, if you want me satisfy me
"Falling Slowly" by: The Swell Season
I don't know you But I want you All the more for that Words fall through me And always fool me And I can't react And games that never amount To more than they're meant Will play themselves out
Take this sinking boat and point it home We've still got time Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice You've made it now
Falling slowly, eyes that know me And I can't go back Moods that take me and erase me And I'm painted black You have suffered enough And warred with yourself It's time that you won
Take this sinking boat and point it home We've still got time Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice You've made it now
Take this sinking boat and point it home We've still got time Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice You've made it now Falling slowly sing your melody I'll sing along
Your love is better than ice cream better than anything else that I've tried. And your love is better than ice cream Everyone here knows how to fight.
Just about an hour ago I had one of the most beautiful wake-up sessions in my life. Okay fine, not really perfect, but there's no such thing as perfect anyway right? I woke up because my phone beeped (a message regarding F-givers), and instead of being Ms. Cranky pants I was pretty normal. It was really dark, and cold, and almost everyone knows how much I love waking up to cold surroundings. It wasn't freezing cold, it was a lazy day, perfect rainy weather type of cold. The edges of my pillow casings were cold, and I have always loved the feeling of it against my skin. My comforter was cold as well, the fan's direction wasn't pointed at my face, but still kept me cool. It was perfect!
So I decided to transfer beds (My parents) because the 'coldness' in my beddings were fading. Plus, I had the perfect songs playing in my head which would accompany the weather perfectly. Next thing I knew, I was switching my speakers on and playing the following songs:
1. Kissing- Bliss 2. Beautiful- Late Night Alumni 3. Rise- Azure Ray 4. Lovely- Michelle Tumes 5. How deep is your love- The Bird and the Bee 6.Crash into me- Dave Matthews Band 7. Comfortable- John Mayer 8. Fresh Feeling- The Eels 9. Cater to you- Destiny's Child 10. Flaws and all- Beyonce Knowles 11. Suddenly- Soraya 12. Echo- Incubus 13. I see you, you see me- The Magic Numbers 14. If you leave (OMD Cover)- Nada Surf 15. Gabriel- Lamb
I'm pretty sure I forgot one or two songs. I'm telling you, this is the perfect way to get up. If everyday could just be like this then waking up wouldn't be such a burdensome task.
P.S.
I miss You.
I really really really do. I haven't talked to You in so long that I feel like I'm about to burst due to anticipation and anxiety. There's so much to tell you although I'm sure you've heard about them already. It's been a year of ups and downs and some in-betweens, and I'd like to share ALL of these with You. Warning...I might cry like a baby. But I know that no one else can soothe me the way you do plus you've seen me cry millions of tears already. I know just having You there will comfort me like no other. I am also deeply saddened, because I believe that one day isn't enough to be with You. I'll make the most out of it. I really can't wait. I wish I could be there for the whole of 3 days, because I miss it...I miss us...I miss You. Just a few more days, and I'll see You again :)
Don't forget...on the 24th, it's going to be me and You. It's a date!
I love You :)
You don't have a clue what it is like to be next to you I'm here to tell you that it is good that it is true.
