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LOSE YOURSELF.
Drops of Jupiter by Train
Now that shes back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey, hey,
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that theres time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like june, hey, hey
Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated
Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there?
Now that shes back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that theres time to grow, hey, hey
Now that shes back in the atmosphere
Im afraid that she might think of me as plain ol jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land
Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the milky way
And tell me, did venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there?
Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know youre wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me
Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the milky way
But tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated
And tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there?
Na na na na na na
Black Balloon by the Goo Goo Dolls
Baby's black balloon makes her fly
I almost fell into that hole in your life
And you're not thinking about tomorrow
'Cause you were the same as me
But on your knees
A thousand other boys could never reach you
How could I have been the one
I saw the world spin beneath you
And scatter like ice from the spoon
That was your womb
Comin' down the world turned overAnd angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
Or are you someone's prayer
You know the lies they always told you
And the love you never knew
What's the things they never showed you
That swallowed the light from the sun
Inside your room
Comin' down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I'll go on to bring you home
All because I'm
All because I'm
And I'll become
What you became to me
Sway by Bic Runga
Don't stray
Don't ever go away
I should be much to smart for this
You know it gets the better Of me
sometimes, When you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you
Pull me out in time
Don't let me drown
Let me down
I say its all because of you
And here I go
Losing my control
I'm practising your name
So I can say it to your face
It doesn't seem right
To look you in the eye
And let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth
Indeed its time
Tell you why
I say its infinately true
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
And there's no cure
And no way to be sure
Why everythings turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
It makes me so tired
I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart
My logic has been torn apart
And now it all turns sour
Come sweeten every afternoon
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
Its all because of you
Its all because of you
Cater 2 U by Destiny's Child
Baby I see you working hard
Wanna let you know i'm proud
Let ya know that I admire what you do
Don't know if I need to reassure you
My life would be purposeless without you
If I want it (got it) when I ask you (you provide it)
You inspire me to be better
You challenge me for the better
Sit back and let me pour out my love letter
Let me help you
Take off your shoes
Untie your shoe strings
Take off your cuff links
What you wanna eat boo?
Let me feed you
Let me run your bath water
Whatever you desire
I'll aspire
Sing you a song
Turn the game on
I'll brush your hair
Help you put your do-rag on
Want a foot rub
Want a manicure
Baby i'm yours, I wanna cater 2 u boy
Chorus:
Let me cater 2 u
Cause baby this is your day
Do anything for my man
Baby you blow me away
I got your slippers, your dinner
Your dessert and so much more
Anything you want,
Let me cater to you
Inspire me from the heart
Can't nothing tear us apart
Your all I want in a man
I put my life in your hands
I got your slippers, your dinner,
Your dessert and so much more
Anything you want, I wanna cater 2 u
Baby i'm happy your home
Let me hold you in my arms
I just want to take the stress away from you
Makin' sure that i'm doing my part
Boy is there something you need me to do
If you want it, (i got it)
Say the word and (i will try it)
I know whatever i'm not fullfillin' no other woman is willing
I'm gone fullfill you my body and spirit
I promise ya
I'll keep myself up
Remain the same chick you fell in love with
I'll keep it tight
I'll keep my figure right
I'll keep my hair fixed, be rocking the hottest outfits
When you come home late
Tap me on my shoulder, i'll roll over
Baby I heard you, i'm here to serve you,
this love you need, to give it is my joy
All I wanna do is cater to you boy
Repeat Chorus
Wanna give my breath, my strength, my will to live
That's the least I can do
Let me cater to you
Through the good, the bad, the ups and the downs
I'll still be here for you
Let me cater to you
'cos you're beautiful
I love the way you are
Fullfill your every desire
Your wish is my command
I wanna cater to my man
Your heart
So pure your love shines through
The darkness we'll get through
So much of me is you
I wanna cater to my man
Let me cater 2 u
Cause baby this is your day
Do anything for my man
Baby you blow me away
I got your slippers, your dinner
Your dessert and so much more
Anything you want,
Let me cater to you
Inspire me from the heart
Can't nothing tear us apart
You all I want in a man
I put my life in your hands
I got your slippers, your dinner,
Your dessert and so much more
Anything you want, I wanna cater 2 u
Melt with You by Modern English
Moving forward using all my breath
Making love to you was never second best
I saw the world thrashing all around your face
Never really knowing it was always mesh and lace
Ill stop the world and melt with you
Youve seen the difference and its getting better all the time
Theres nothing you and I wont do
Ill stop the world and melt with you
(you should know better)
Dream of better lives the kind which never hate
(you should see why)
Dropped in the state of imaginary grace
(you should know better)
I made a pilgrimage to save this humans race
(you should see why)
What Im comprehending a race that long gone bye
(Ill stop the world) Ill stop the world and melt with you
(Ill stop the world) youve seen the difference and its getting better all the time
(lets stop the world) theres nothing you and I wont do
(lets stop the world) Ill stop the world and melt with you
The futures open wide
(lets stop the world) Ill stop the world and melt with you
(lets stop the world) Ive seen some changes but its getting better all the time
(lets stop the world) theres nothing you and I wont do
(lets stop the world) Ill stop the world and melt with you
Ill stop the world and melt with you (lets stop the world)
Youve seen the difference and its getting better all the time (lets stop the world)
Theres nothing you and I wont do (lets stop the world)
Ill stop the world and melt with you (lets stop the world)
Ill stop the world and melt with you (lets stop the world)
Ill stop the world and melt with you (lets stop the world)
I'm Yours- Jason Mraz
Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
Now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
And nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved
So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
Scooch on over closer dear
And i will nibble your ear
I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue
But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours
Please don't, please don't, please don't
There's no need to complicate
Cause our time is short
This oh this this is out fate, I'm yours.
IT REMINDED ME TWICE THAT I WAS ALIVE.
Drops of Jupiter- Train
Repeat. Repeat. Repeat.
Favorite Line:
She Acts like summer and walks like rain
Black Balloon- The Goo Goo Dolls
Favorite line/s:
Comin' down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
Or are you someone's prayer
Sway- Bic Runga
Favorite line/s:
THE WHOLE SONG! This is my ULTIMATE, favorite song of all time :)
Cater 2 U- Destiny's Child
Favorite line/s: 'Cos you're beautiful, I love the way you are. Fulfill your every desire, your wish is my command, I want to cater to my man..."
"Baby you blow me away..."
This version is done by a very talented Filipino who calls himself "Passion". He's based in San Fo.
Go to Youtube to check out his other songs. He did a wonderful version of "True" by Ryan Cabrera as well as other mixes
Melt with You- Modern English
Favorite line/s: "I made a pilgrimage to save this human race..."
"I'll stop the world and melt with you. You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time. There's nothing you and I won't do..."
I'm Yours- Frank Hagen (Originally by Jason Mraz)
I saw this version in facebook which was uploaded by one of my friends (Hi Bebang!)
Definitely one of the sweetest songs I have ever heard. A very vital part of my 2008 summer song collection :)
Favorite line/s: "...I tried to be cool, but you're so hot that I melted."
"I won't hesitate no more, no more, it cannot wait, I'm yours."
"I won't hesitate no more, no more it cannot wait...I'm sure"
HELLO SUNSHINE.
T.R.I.N.A.
My friends call me Trina.
Some call me Trins.
I like pina colladas.
I love Tea/Coffee
Japanese food is heaven
I love taking pictures.
I love having mini-concerts all over my house which includes dancing in my bathroom, and singing in my shower.
That also means I love being a dork.
I love to read just because it's wonderful!
Powerbooks/Fullybooked/coffee bean is my safe place
My favorite place in my house is my bathroom
Two of my favorite words are STELLAR and SUBLIME (ergo stellarsublime_)
I'd skip a main course and go straight to dessert anytime.
I hate eating breakfast food if it is not served during breakfast time (Except when we eat in pancake house). Jess has got my back.
I have the best friends in the world.
I can't ask for a better family (Crazy crazy!)
I absolutely adore the rain.
I think laughter is the best melody.
I still want to be a mermaid.
Give me the dance floor and I'll rock the night away.
Oh and music...practically my life.
This is what you call randomness.
Anything goes.
RESOLUTIONS FOR 2009:
*BE HAPPY!
*Never settle for less than perfect (sometimes)
*Never settle period.
*Do your best in everything
*Love yourself first. Seriously.
*Be of service for others.
*Dress up and look good for yourself :)
Some of my favorite Quotations:
"I’m erased. I’m gone. I’m nothing. And then the world is free to flow into me like water into an empty bowl…. And… I see. I hear. But not with eyes and ears. I’m not outside my world anymore, and I’m not really inside it either. The thing is, there’s no difference between me and the universe. The boundary is gone. I am it and it is me. I am a stone, a cactus thorn. I am rain. I like that most of all, being rain.” --Star Girl
"Perhaps we give the best of our hearts uncritically, to those who hardly think of us in return." --Lucas Scott, OTH
and my all time favorite:
"Anyone who says sunshine brings happiness has never danced in the rain...fairy tales are more than true, not because they tell us that dragons exist, but because they tell us that dragons can be beaten. " --G.K. Chesterton
In the NOW:
Date: 05/11/09 at 11:36PM
Currently munching on: Still nothing. Craving for: Nothing. Love drink of the moment: Cold unsweetened tea with 2 packets of Splenda Currently watching: Bride Wars Browsing through: Wicked by Greggory Mguire Currently feeling: Sleeepppyyyy In need of: a lot of prayers. Current plans: Accept. Control. Love. Ear Candy of the present: Patron (Tequila) by Paradiso Girls ft. lil John
Favorite Lines:
I'm feelin' so conceited (yeah! )
'Cuz everybody is giving me love (uh, uh)
I'm on Patron, Tequila (YUN LANG EH! haha)
Let's go!
Hey!
What's happenin'?
What you drinkin' tonight girl?
Drinkin' tonight with me!
Put your drinks up!
Hey girl
Where's your drink?
We goin' all get real drunk tonight
Hey girl
I got bud we can all get fucked up tonight (get fucked up tonight)
By the end of the night
Imma have you drunk and throwing up (hey! )
By the end of the night
Imma have you so fucked up! (have you so fucked up)
They said what you drinkin'? (what you drinkin'?)
Let me buy you a couple of rounds
And I said what you thinkin'? (yeah! )
I ain't the type of girl to get down
But I can party wit cha (uh huh)
And bring my girls aside (uh huh)
Tell the bartender bring the ice
And let 'em know I'm on Patron
I'm on Patron, Tequila
I'm drunk on Margarita [on Margaritas]
That Patron, Tequila [that Patron]
Me and my mamacita (yeah! ) [me and my mamacita]
Hey girl (hey girl)
Where's your drink?
We goin' all get real drunk tonight (get real drunk tonight) [real drunk tonight]
Hey girl
I got bud we can all get fucked up tonight (get fucked up tonight) [yeah]
By the end of the night
Imma have you drunk and throwing up (hey! ) [throwing up]
By the end of the night [oohh]
Imma have you so fucked up! (so fucked up! )
And now the parted heated
'Cuz I got a hot girl in the club
I'm feelin' so conceited (yeah! )
'Cuz everybody is giving me love (uh, uh)
But hold up, wait a minute (uh huh)
'Cuz my cup is going empty
I need someone to refill me
I'm trynna to get drunk (me too)
I'm on Patron, Tequila [yeah, yeah]
I'm drunk on Margarita
That Patron, Tequila [yeah, yeah]
Me and my mamacita
Hey girl (hey girl)
Where's your drink?
We goin' all get real drunk tonight (get real drunk tonight)
Hey girl
I got bud we can all get fucked up tonight (get fucked up tonight) [yeah]
By the end of the night
Imma have you drunk and throwing up (hey! ) [throwing up]
By the end of the night
Imma have you so fucked up! (so fucked up! )
Who wanna get fucked up? [I do, I do]
Who wanna get fucked up? [I do, I do]
Who wanna get drunk? (me) [me]
Who wanna get drunk? (I'm already drunk) [me]
Who wanna get fucked up? (haha) [I do, I do]
Who wanna get fucked up?(I ain't stopping them) [I do, I do]
Who wanna get drunk? [me]
Who wanna get drunk? (let's have another one)
I'm on Patron, Tequila
I'm drunk on Margarita
That Patron, Tequila [yeah, yeah]
Me and my mamacita (put your drinks up!)
Hey girl (hey girl)
Where's your drink?
We goin' all get real drunk tonight
Hey girl
I got bud we can all get fucked up tonight
By the end of the night
Imma have you drunk and throwing up
By the end of the night
Imma have you so fucked up! [Imma have you so fucked up!]
Put your drinks up!
Put your drinks up!
Put your drinks up!
Put your drinks up!
I'm on Patron, Tequila
I'm drunk on Margarita
That Patron, Tequila
Me and my mamacita
SWAY MY WAY.
Book/s I'm reading right now.
Wicked -Gregory Mguire// Shoeholics Anonymous
Books I love.
1.) The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini
We had to read this for our LITERA2 class back when I was a senior in college, and I have to say that this book is unbelievably amazing.
Never in my life have I read a book that had tremendous power to move me to such great depths of my emotions.
I give it a five thumbs up! A real must read.
My favorite line: "For you a thousand times over."
2.) P.S. I love you by Cecila Ahern
A book that was recommended to me by one of my best college friends.
It's somewhat like the movie (which she and I watched together as well), but much better.
To those who are in the process of grieving due to a loss, I strongly suggest that you grab a copy right now.
It's not just a good read, but it'll also help you process your emotions and find happiness in the end.
My favorite line: "...There are worse sins in the world than learning to be happy again."
3.) Star Girl by Jerry Spinelli
A children's book that's made for adults as well. Recommended by my cousin who is an absolute bookworm.
It's about a new student in Meca High named Stargirl.
She's different. Intelligent. Quirky. and very much mysterious.
It's a book on belonging, conformity, falling in-love, and hope.
What's not to love about this book?
Books waiting to be read.
1.) Constant Princess -Philippa Gregory
2.) The Historian -Elizabeth Kostova
3.) A Swiftly Tilting Planet -Madeleine L'engle
4.) Sense and Sensibility -Jane Austin
T A G B O A R D
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BE THERE? BEEN THERE!
2:50 AM - Saturday, January 31, 2009
T.L. Gets it done!!!!! I la-la-la-love my friends :)
Another one of those inuman nights, and I am the last one standing. Hahahaha
I just wanted to write an entry so that I remember this night.
The funny thing about it is that it wasn't a SPECTACULAR night. I mean sure, every night with my girls are the best, but some nights are extra amazing.
This wasn't one of those amazing nights. But I saw something that reminded me that there will be more days in the future with my la-la-la-loves which will be extra super duper a-m-a-z-i-n-g, and I'm really looking forward to those days.
My friends aren't perfect, but they're true...and that's what makes them pretty perfect for me.
I just finished watching the movie "Failure to Launch" (2006), and I just have to say that the soundtrack is the cutest :)
My mum and I also just bonded a bit over what women supposedly do best... "cooking". I helped her mash, dice, cut, grate, etc. various food components to create a culinary masterpiece (It's actually just pizza pandesal, banana pancakes, lentejas soup, and adobo). Now I'm trying to relax with half a martini glass filled with red wine though it's 1:43 in the afternoon. Haha. Somehow red wine reminds me of one of the sexiest songs I've ever heard (Love in this club part 1 by Usher).
Another one of those friday nights are coming up with the barkada hanging out here in my house.
Invite: Hello Friends! Save this Frdiay for alcohol and Karaoke over at my house. Friends, Food, and Drinks are welcome. See you at 8ish! BE THERE!!!! :)
Hahaha See you girlies and boyz this fuhriday!
Now let's all be quite cute and sing along.
and one more just because I think it's really sexy.
For those who have not read Love, Stargirl and have every intention to do so... skip this entry, or go straight to the part after the ~*~*~*~*~*~.
I wouldn't want to spoil the ending.
Here we go:
"...And so the days pass, twelve of them since the sun began its journey back to summer. Ordinary days, ordinary creatures. Ordinary, usual, everyday life--and yet it all seems so special now, the commonest gestures flecked with glitter, as if a sparkle from the golden beam clung to every person who went down from Calendar Hill that morning.
As I stood that final time on the hill, I decided that--yes--I will mail this world's longest letter to you. I know now that you too were there that morning, as surely as the Lenape maiden and Charlie's Grace were there. Your answer has been a new sunrise for me, my own personal Solstice, the dawn of a season that I will, as betty Lou would say, inhabit one day at a time. I will sail into the future on mystery's wings and I will not look back. Oh yes, I do love Arnold, but I have been too much like him. We Arnolds, our hearts year backward. We long to be found, hoping our searchers have not given up and gone home. But I no longer hope to be found, Leo. Do not follow me! Let's just be fabulously where we are and who we are. You be you and I'll be me, today and today and today, and let's trust the future to tomorrow. Let the stars keeps track of us. Let us ride our own orbits and trust that they will meet. May our reunion be not a finding but a sweet collision of destinies!"
Love and Love and Love again,
Stargirl
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
What a beautiful story. I'd like to change my name to RAINGIRL hahahaha.
P.S.
Our number would've been...4 :)
Maybe I'll elaborate on that later. Maybe, Maybe not.
Can I be that perfect girl (Oh the month of April)?
12:15 AM
Haruki Murakami: On seeing the 100% perfect girl one beautiful April morning
One beautiful April morning, on a narrow side street in Tokyo's fashionable Harujuku neighborhood, I walked past the 100% perfect girl.
Tell you the truth, she's not that good-looking. She doesn't stand out in any way. Her clothes are nothing special. The back of her hair is still bent out of shape from sleep. She isn't young, either - must be near thirty, not even close to a "girl," properly speaking. But still, I know from fifty yards away: She's the 100% perfect girl for me. The moment I see her, there's a rumbling in my chest, and my mouth is as dry as a desert.
Maybe you have your own particular favorite type of girl - one with slim ankles, say, or big eyes, or graceful fingers, or you're drawn for no good reason to girls who take their time with every meal. I have my own preferences, of course. Sometimes in a restaurant I'll catch myself staring at the girl at the next table to mine because I like the shape of her nose.
But no one can insist that his 100% perfect girl correspond to some preconceived type. Much as I like noses, I can't recall the shape of hers - or even if she had one. All I can remember for sure is that she was no great beauty. It's weird.
"Yesterday on the street I passed the 100% girl," I tell someone.
"Yeah?" he says. "Good-looking?"
"Not really."
"Your favorite type, then?"
"I don't know. I can't seem to remember anything about her - the shape of her eyes or the size of her breasts."
"Strange."
"Yeah. Strange."
"So anyhow," he says, already bored, "what did you do? Talk to her? Follow her?"
"Nah. Just passed her on the street."
She's walking east to west, and I west to east. It's a really nice April morning.
Wish I could talk to her. Half an hour would be plenty: just ask her about herself, tell her about myself, and - what I'd really like to do - explain to her the complexities of fate that have led to our passing each other on a side street in Harajuku on a beautiful April morning in 1981. This was something sure to be crammed full of warm secrets, like an antique clock build when peace filled the world.
After talking, we'd have lunch somewhere, maybe see a Woody Allen movie, stop by a hotel bar for cocktails. With any kind of luck, we might end up in bed.
Potentiality knocks on the door of my heart.
Now the distance between us has narrowed to fifteen yards.
How can I approach her? What should I say?
"Good morning, miss. Do you think you could spare half an hour for a little conversation?"
Ridiculous. I'd sound like an insurance salesman.
"Pardon me, but would you happen to know if there is an all-night cleaners in the neighborhood?"
No, this is just as ridiculous. I'm not carrying any laundry, for one thing. Who's going to buy a line like that?
Maybe the simple truth would do. "Good morning. You are the 100% perfect girl for me."
No, she wouldn't believe it. Or even if she did, she might not want to talk to me. Sorry, she could say, I might be the 100% perfect girl for you, but you're not the 100% boy for me. It could happen. And if I found myself in that situation, I'd probably go to pieces. I'd never recover from the shock. I'm thirty-two, and that's what growing older is all about.
We pass in front of a flower shop. A small, warm air mass touches my skin. The asphalt is damp, and I catch the scent of roses. I can't bring myself to speak to her. She wears a white sweater, and in her right hand she holds a crisp white envelope lacking only a stamp. So: She's written somebody a letter, maybe spent the whole night writing, to judge from the sleepy look in her eyes. The envelope could contain every secret she's ever had.
I take a few more strides and turn: She's lost in the crowd.
Now, of course, I know exactly what I should have said to her. It would have been a long speech, though, far too long for me to have delivered it properly. The ideas I come up with are never very practical.
Oh, well. It would have started "Once upon a time" and ended "A sad story, don't you think?"
Once upon a time, there lived a boy and a girl. The boy was eighteen and the girl sixteen. He was not unusually handsome, and she was not especially beautiful. They were just an ordinary lonely boy and an ordinary lonely girl, like all the others. But they believed with their whole hearts that somewhere in the world there lived the 100% perfect boy and the 100% perfect girl for them. Yes, they believed in a miracle. And that miracle actually happened.
One day the two came upon each other on the corner of a street.
"This is amazing," he said. "I've been looking for you all my life. You may not believe this, but you're the 100% perfect girl for me."
"And you," she said to him, "are the 100% perfect boy for me, exactly as I'd pictured you in every detail. It's like a dream."
They sat on a park bench, held hands, and told each other their stories hour after hour. They were not lonely anymore. They had found and been found by their 100% perfect other. What a wonderful thing it is to find and be found by your 100% perfect other. It's a miracle, a cosmic miracle.
As they sat and talked, however, a tiny, tiny sliver of doubt took root in their hearts: Was it really all right for one's dreams to come true so easily?
And so, when there came a momentary lull in their conversation, the boy said to the girl, "Let's test ourselves - just once. If we really are each other's 100% perfect lovers, then sometime, somewhere, we will meet again without fail. And when that happens, and we know that we are the 100% perfect ones, we'll marry then and there. What do you think?"
"Yes," she said, "that is exactly what we should do."
And so they parted, she to the east, and he to the west.
The test they had agreed upon, however, was utterly unnecessary. They should never have undertaken it, because they really and truly were each other's 100% perfect lovers, and it was a miracle that they had ever met. But it was impossible for them to know this, young as they were. The cold, indifferent waves of fate proceeded to toss them unmercifully.
One winter, both the boy and the girl came down with the season's terrible inluenza, and after drifting for weeks between life and death they lost all memory of their earlier years. When they awoke, their heads were as empty as the young D. H. Lawrence's piggy bank.
They were two bright, determined young people, however, and through their unremitting efforts they were able to acquire once again the knowledge and feeling that qualified them to return as full-fledged members of society. Heaven be praised, they became truly upstanding citizens who knew how to transfer from one subway line to another, who were fully capable of sending a special-delivery letter at the post office. Indeed, they even experienced love again, sometimes as much as 75% or even 85% love.
Time passed with shocking swiftness, and soon the boy was thirty-two, the girl thirty.
One beautiful April morning, in search of a cup of coffee to start the day, the boy was walking from west to east, while the girl, intending to send a special-delivery letter, was walking from east to west, but along the same narrow street in the Harajuku neighborhood of Tokyo. They passed each other in the very center of the street. The faintest gleam of their lost memories glimmered for the briefest moment in their hearts. Each felt a rumbling in their chest. And they knew:
She is the 100% perfect girl for me.
He is the 100% perfect boy for me.
But the glow of their memories was far too weak, and their thoughts no longer had the clarity of fouteen years earlier. Without a word, they passed each other, disappearing into the crowd. Forever.
A sad story, don't you think?
Yes, that's it, that is what I should have said to her.
Taken from: http://www.mat.upm.es/~jcm/murakami-perfect.html
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I want to start collecting ALL his books. Seriously.
I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.
I've learned that no matter how much I care some people just don't care back.
I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
I've learned that it's not what you have in your life, but whom you have in your life that counts.
I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.
I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And, just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.
I’ve learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn’t stop for your grief.
I’ve learned that no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get hurt, and you will hurt in the process.
I've learned that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it.
I've learned that heroes are people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
I’ve learned that you can keep going long after you can’t
At exactly 12:06am, on the very steps where one of the world's greatest nation leaders statue stands, President elect Barack Obama is inaugurated in front of millions of viewers.
Out of all my 21 years on this very earth, I have not witnessed history being made that has moved me to tears and goosebumps. This was the very first.
I may not be American, but I salute the new found President of the United States of America. He has brought in change even before he set foot on the white washed steps of the whitehouse. He has ushered in a silent positive revolution to his nation, and around the world just by giving a speech that talks about his promise for a better nation.
I love the way that he is such an amazing orator. I wish I could whip up a speech like that at the very moment of needing it.
So there it is. History being made. Change has arrived. Hopefully good things will come along with it.
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On a heavier note. Enough is enough. I am so ardently embarassed with how I think, and speak, and reason out. I need to be tired. I need to have had enough. I need to be angry.
I don't want to strike out with you for MY sake. Once was okay, the second was partly stupid. And that's where it ends. No more strike 3. Let's leave it at that please.
This is me being selfish for just a few minutes.
I want you to need me. To need something from me. To need something so badly that you'll do anything just to have whatever it is that you need.
And when that one day comes. I promise you. I will NOT be there.
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Obama, it's like you whispered in my ear and told me "It's time for a change"
Say it again for me cause I love the way it feels when you are
telling me that I'm the only one who blows your mind.
I've been watching a whole bunch of movies for the past few days.
One movie made me think. The other movie never fails to make me feel good. The third movie I totally forgot about And the last movie, I'll never forget.
Some quotes, just for the sake of remembering:
1. Vicky, Cristina, Barcelona.
"Juan Antonio: We are meant for each other and not meant for each other. It's a contradiction. "
2. My Best friend's wedding (My favorite movie of all time)
"Julianne Potter: I had the strangest dream. I dreamt that some psychopath was trying to break the two of you up. Luckily, I woke up and I see that the world is just as it should be. For my best friend has won the best woman. I didn't buy you a gift. But this is on loan until you two find your song... "
"Kimmy Wallace: He's got you on a pedestal and me in his arms. "
"Julianne Potter: George, what'll he do? George Downes: He'll choose Kimmy. You'll stand beside him on his wedding day, and kiss him goodbye. That's what you came here to do. So do it."
My favorite:
"Michael: When you said you were with George...this is uhhh.. Julianne: You were jealous? Michael: Crazy jealous."
3. Father of the Bride (Reminds me of my dad :) )
"George: [seeing the gift from Bryan's parents] Yikes. A whole car. Annie: Dad? Dad? Dad, did you see what the Mackenzie's got us? George: It's unbelievable. And you thought you'd never have a new car. Annie: I know. [sees him hiding a gift from her] Annie: What's that? George: It's nothing. It's just a gift I was thinking of giving you guys. It's something you said you didn't have, but you wanted. Annie: Can I see it? George: [gives it to her] Yeah, you know, it's, it's not a big, big gift of course. Annie: [she opens it] It's a cappuccino maker! George: Supposed to be a good one. That's what they said at the store. It's uh, top of the line. Makes great foam. Annie: [kisses her dad] I couldn't love anything more. George: My feelings exactly. "
"George: Who presents this woman? This woman? But she's not a woman. She's just a kid. And she's leaving us. I realized at that moment that I was never going to come home again and see Annie at the top of the stairs. Never going to see her again at our breakfast table in her nightgown and socks. I suddenly realized what was happening. Annie was all grown up and was leaving us, and something inside began to hurt."
"George: This was the moment I'd been dreading for the past six months. Well, actually for the past 22 years. "
My favorite:
"George: Well, that's the thing about life, is the surprises, the little things that sneak up on you and grab hold of you. "
"Benjamin Button: I was thinking how nothing lasts, and what a shame that is. Daisy: Some things last. "
"Benjamin Button: Along the way you bump into people who make a dent on your life. Some people get struck by lightning. Some are born to sit by a river. Some have an ear for music. Some are artists. Some swim the English Channel. Some know buttons. Some know Shakespeare. Some are mothers. And some people can dance."
"Benjamin Button: It's a funny thing about comin' home. Looks the same, smells the same, feels the same. You'll realize what's changed is you."
"Benjamin Button: [Voice over; letter to his daughter] For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again."
My favorites:
"Mrs. Maple: Benjamin, we're meant to lose the people we love. How else would we know how important they are to us?"
Benjamin Button: It's funny how sometimes the people we remember the least make the "greatest impression on us. "
"Captain Mike: You can be as mad as a mad dog at the way things went. You could wear, curse the fates, but when it comes to the end, you have to let go."
There's just something about movies like these that fascinates me to my very core. Maybe it's the conflict that isn't so evident, or the way the plot is so twisted and tangled that even till the very end of the film, things are not resolved nor understandable. It's probably also because of the many questions in my head that surfaces every now and then due to a particular scene or a line that one of the characters say. Movies that make me think and confused somehow always end up in my "favorites" list, and that does puzzle me a little.
Do the movies you like and enjoy say something in particular about you? Every scripted line that mesmerizes you, every scene that captivates your being...are they little implications of what your personality is or who you might actually be?
If the answer is yes, I should be a little bit scared don't you think? Puzzling, tainted, rough, passionate, and conflicted films are those that I need to see every now and then. Does that say a lot (or rather little) about me?
All I know is that I was amused with the story, and how it held fairly well on it's own. It could probably be a classic, but it defenitely will not be. I appreciated the fact that it was unusual, and bold, yet moving and palpable to the way human life should be.
It's a lot of taboo. Maybe that's why it triggered my liking.
I believe that I could put it side by side with "Closer". I hardly see films like these being made, or maybe I just don't see a lot of movies now a days. I hope that I would though, because it certainly stirs something inside of me. Curiousity? Maybe. Probably. Interest? Most definitely.
Watch it, and maybe you'll understand what I'm trying to say.
Maybe, maybe not. That I think is another beauty of it all. It needs an acquired taste. Just like Uni (sea urchin) sushi. You either hate it or love it.
Well I loved it, and maybe (not soon I think) I'll watch it again sometime and appreciate it even more.
I can hardly contain my excitment. As a matter of fact, I won't.
I'm having major palpitations just thinking about it, what more 3 months from now when I'm actually there, front and center (Okay, not really) smelling the sweat of the players, hearing the cheers of crazed fans, eating hotdog and drinking regular Mug rootbeer while... wait for it....
WATCHING THE SAN ANTONIO SPURS PLAY LIVE!!!!!!!!!
I was really sprung out of my mind when I found out we were watching the Pacers play against the Pistons, but this is just a whole other level. In fact, this is the highest lever there is (Unless they played against the Lakers with homecourt advantage, but still!)
I don't care if they'll be the "Away" team, I'll be cheering for them loud and proud. hahahaha
Parker, I can't wait to watch you weave your way through your opponents just to get a basket. Duncan, you are majorly hot even if you're an old timer. You'll always be the man.
and of course...
Ginobili (Oh Manu!), I can't freaking wait to see you work those magic fingers ;)
I found this "song" in my bestfriend's old journal dated Feb 7, 2005, and boy did it make me laugh.
Hello fellow Titans, sing along with me (I think it's pretty obvious that it's sung to the tune of Ligaya by the Eraserheads).
SONG TITLE: Fourtworitis
Verse 1:
Ilang leksyon pa ba ang aaralin o’ guro ko? Ilang Kcals p ba ang susunugin o’ Elay ko. Sampung araw na akong walang tulog dito Di na matago ng concealer mga eyebags ko
* Makagraduate lang kami’t makapasa walang humpay na LIGAYAAAAA…
Chorus 1: Aasahang mamimiss ko ang nanay namin na pangalan ay Lorna Mahabang mga kwento ni Ms. Ima Pati ang art classes ni Ms. Atienza At mamimiss ko ang kulitan at asran para kay Aurea.
Verse 2:
Ilang awit pa ba ang aawitin, Januarius ko? Ilang bola pa ba ang iiwasan o’ Alan ko? Tatlong oras na kaming nakaupo dito, Nabubuking kaming lahat ng mga guro ko.
Repeat * (Makagraduate lang kami’t makapasa walang humpay na LIGAYAAAAA…)
aasahang mamimiss ang mga Turong LesMis ni Mrs. Eala, Pati narin ang research paper namin, Na kayhirap ipaaprove at iproof read ni Mrs. Villalon.
Ilang hirit pa ba ang hihiritin o’ Benjie ko? Ilang Lab work pa ba ang gagawi-in Ms. Bascug ko? Mga equations ni Sr. Boyet at ni “Ms. Toto” Dahil dito nauubos na ang pad paper ko
Repeat * (Makagraduate lang kami’t makapasa walang humpay na LIGAYAAAAA…)
aasahang mamimiss ko si Sr. Callueng at ang computer lab. Na palaging may virus pag nandoon. Mamimiss ko ang pagkanta ng ALWAYS At walang tigil na kulitan at asaran para kay jz!
Oh Highschool, how I sometimes miss you :)
Tatlong oras na akong nagpapacute sayo Di mo man lang pinapansin ang bagong T-shirt ko.
This used to make me cry. and cry. and...well cry.
Something always brings me back to you. It never takes too long. No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.
You hold me without touch. You keep me without chains. I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.
CHORUS Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity. Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be. But you're on to me and all over me.
You loved me 'cause I'm fragile. When I thought that I was strong. But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.
CHORUS Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity. Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be. But you're on to me and all over me.
I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on the ground. But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go. The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down
I listen to it now, and it makes me sad. And sometimes I still shed a tear. And then eventually I smile. Sometimes I even laugh.
P.S. A new song from V baby. thanks love :)
One step too far All at once I'm falling Just like a star I'm burning for you Thought I could keep myself from feeling this way I guess that was my first mistake
Cause suddenly I'm walking' Down a dark street to your door Wanting you is driving' me insane And now my feet are standing Where they've never stood before Guided by a twist of fate
If I lose myself with you tonight Fall apart or hold on tight Wrong or right I won't be afraid Cause ever if my heart should break You'd be the best mistake I ever made
I'm in your room Now there's no denying' What's in your eyes When I look at you Two shadows talking' but they don't make a sound Words have lost their meaning now
And the air has turned electric Now I know the time is right To put myself into your hands And suddenly I'm shaking' As your fingers touch my skin I don't need to understand
And if tomorrow proves me wrong I swear I don't belong I know I'll carry on
So I will lose myself and bare my soul Take this chance cause heaven knows I'm so far gone, my choice is made And even if my heart should break
When I lose myself with you tonight Fall apart or hold on tight Wrong or right I'll always say You're the best mistake I ever made
I don't think
I need to put any lyrics here for this entry...right?
Everyday it rains my heart starts drowning my vision gets cloudy the flood moves around me Everyday it rains no sign of the light as the time goes by 40 days and 40 nights
First off, I'm craving for sparkling white wine. But that's besides the point. Here we go.
There's something comforting and refreshing about reading other people's blogs. I guess in a way it makes me realize that sometimes I'm not the only who feels up or down or high or low regarding life, love and what not. Knowing that someone else out there feels the exact same way, though maybe through a different experience, makes the experience bearable and worth remembering.
Good writers fascinate me a lot. The way the use words to express feelings, create pictures, paint murals of everyday events makes me want to hone my writing skills as well.
I came across this saying just a few seconds ago:
Learn from mistakes
"So, I learn from my mistakes. It's a very painful way to learn, but without pain, the old saying is, there's no gain. I found that to be true in my life. You miss a lot of opportunities by making mistakes, but that's part of it: knowing that you're not shut out forever, and that there's a goal you still can reach."
- Johnny Cash
After reading it twice, I smiled a smile that I secretly share with myself. It gave me a boost of strength. Learning from mistakes allows you to accept and let go, and then hope comes in and saves you from doubting and wallowing.
There really is beauty in the breakdown.
Life has shown me that over and over, again and again.
So here is to making more mistakes, and learning from them. Here's to getting hurt, and then healing completely Here's to having your heart broken, and finding someone to put the pieces back together again. Here's to losing yourself, and then eventually finding your true meaning in life. Here's to the past, which helped make your future better.
Here's to my faulty 2008 which helped pave my way to my "fresh" beginning in 2009. Here's to you, and here's to me.
New year, New life =)
Let's make it better.
Now, pass the white wine please.
I don't know why I don't need a reason When I look your eyes, my heart stops beating And I've finally found something worth to put me through And I won't give up until I stop breathing
I've been watching OTH non-stop since the beginning of December. There's really something about this show that captures my heart in more ways than one.
5x12: HUNDRED, is one of my favorite episodes.
"Lucas, you can't! I'm sorry, I'm sorry but you just can't because I love you. And because you fixed my car! Remember that day? Because that day changed everything. And I just, I didn't know it at that time. But when you fixed my car...you fixed my heart. And when you proposed to me two years ago I just wasn't ready. And I was lost, and scared, so I said someday...but someday's now Luke, it is. Someday is now, and I love you. Please don't leave me again. People always leave."
Hay hay hay. Nakakakilig talaga :)
La la la!
We made plans to grow old, Believe me there was truth in all those stories that I told. Lost in a simple game cat and mouse remain the same Are we the same people as before this came to light?
But I love the way you roll excuses off the tip of your tongue as I (slowly) slowly, quietly, slowly fall apart.
4:36 AM
Today was an okay day.
Wow. I haven't had an okay day in so long! In fact, I feel that today was a more than okay day. It was...a good day :) And saying that right now, out loud (yes I said it out loud) makes my heart smile.
I am calm.
I haven't been calm in so long, and I am definitely greatful for feeling this way. I am rejoicing in the fact that despite how the world is still pretty messed up, I am on my way to becoming okay. I savor the moment, I inhale deeply, and exhale slowly. Quite afraid and slightly feeling stupid for thinking that if I breathe too fast, my being calm will go along with it.
I just got home around 40 minutes or so ago, and here I am now browsing through my daily blogs, sipping my milk tea, and feeling the cool breeze that's coming from my electric fan. My cousins and I danced and drank the night away in Ascend and Embassy. I have not partied like that in so long. It was a good night. And can I just say that Embassy had some god damned wonderfreakingful music! I'm actually still on a high from listening to all those tunes. It was a mix, from the 90s (Spice Girls- "Stop") backtracking to the 80s (I forgot, but it was totally dance worthy), then fast forwarding to the now....the right now 2008/9 (Pitbull- "Go Girl", Ne-yo- "Closer", Katy Pery- "Hot Cold" etc. etc.)
It's weird, but there are certain moments in your life when you suddenly have that rush of energy filling your veins making your heart thump faster, and your smile a little bit wider. I had that moment about an hour ago. That moment you call...happiness. Yes, I was happy. I am once again amazed at how music always finds a way to squeeze itself in my whole being just to make me feel this way. I am once again greatful.
And as it happened, for a brief moment, I was really okay. For just a few minutes, I knew I was going to be okay, I was going to be happy, and I was going to be stronger and better. I am certain that there are days when my high will gradually drift away because of certain unexpected things, but that momentary feeling of happiness gives me hope.
I still feel the strawberry artic (mixed with Sprite) cruising it's way in my system, I'm just a tad bit hazy, my legs ache, my feet are killing me, and my toes feel like they're about to bleed bloody murder, but I am okay. I am good :) And no amount of alcohol, physical pain, or anything else for that matter can actually bring me down tonight. So I again inhale deeply, and exhale slowly. I savor this feeling. I cherish the moment.
Once more. Hello 2009, welcome to my life. :)
Oh the world its spinning now its trying to catch me up and tell me to appreciate the here and now
Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end
11:17 PM - Thursday, January 1, 2009
I feel so compelled to write an entry just because it's the very first day of 2009. So unbelievably coerced that I actually can't find the right words which will perfectly express how I feel now that the ending of something which I thought would be wonderful has arrived. It is finally the start of something new, possibly exciting, definitely different.
I won't force myself any longer.
Hello 2009. Welcome to my life.
Sometimes I wish that I could stop you from talking When I hear the silly things that you say. I think somebody better put out the big light, 'Cause I can't stand to see you this way.
